There is a question that does not leave me alone for years. Why did it all happen to me? I am not who I was born to be. Under the pressure of bullying and emotional abuse I became someone else. I  became me - the failure from the mirror! It's too late to go back to previous settings and impossible to be healed. I feel incomplete and damaged. I got so traumatized that I am lost in my own personality. I am in hiding and in denying,  trying to be some one else, always holding myself and avoiding endeavors  I can succeed and master.  I don't have the answer, I just feel miserable and worthless of myself.