Aramtenek looked at her fingernails. They turned green. It meant she could fall in love again. She has been researching The book of dead for quite long time already. She didn't understand anything. 

Love. What is to love for any Tenek? First of all is to lose his own identity, get red wings but lose rational thinking and any recollection of God's message. To love means to through away everything/ anything that has been collected through the centuries, to love means to die, without actually losing owns physical body but soul. Most of Teneks could choose. But some of them didn't.

Это всё что осталось от моей когда-тошней мечты быть художником-модельером

 

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Aramtenek found a sword of Honesty and decided to check the eternal truth:"the sword cuts both ways"

She drained herself out while fighting the unbearable Yuzuses.

But the sword of Honest was meant to help.

The desert was full of the hair. It was a traditional hair losing before you step into the green era. It was strange for Teneks, yet, it was so traditional for luberuses

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aramtenek asked Betoko to describe her.

Betoko said--Aramtenek, you are pale.

and it was a compliment.

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Here it is--a purple desert. This desert have been existed since the zero era. And now it barely let any stranger in. Teneks die in purple fires of it.

I do not know

I do not apologize

Vetrenaja: may be you should try?

Dima: what? To apologize? To do so is to waste my time or to stress an air.

Vetrenaja: You can be rude and not to apologize in front of me. 

Dima: is there anything to aplogize for?

Vetrenaja: for being rude

Dima: Am I?

Vetrenaja: yes. and its kinda hot.

Dima: you are so silly.

Vetrenaja: you see, you are rude again.

Dima: I am a bastard as I ve been told not only on one occasion.

Vetrenaja: and this is hot too.

Dima: if you continue to fall in love with bastard, I must warn you. Your heart wil be broken.

Vetrenaja: oh. but before that.... I am like a butterfly flying on the light of the candle..

Dima: it will burn you.

Vetrenaja: let it.

I used to say this phrase very often
I have been reading a psychology book written by psychologist Ellis
and He has made me thinking that some things not under my control
but my emotions reactions and stressors can be controlled by be
How?
Easily
For example, I cannot control the fact that my aunt got ahlod of the key set from my Belarusian apartment
she took out there everything she could
as she had recognized the fact of me not being able to get to my apartment
therefore, I have been very exausted recently when I think that things are being stolen from my flat but nothing can be done
After reading Ellis I have realized that I wont change anythoing by getting mad
I will just get an ulcer or ahetattack
but I can change my attitude
and clam down and just
let them take those things.

Eventually the sun went down and his world was folding in darkness.
I looked at Chad and thought.
you are so beautiful
He was/
His shining was almost unbearable
or it just was a sunset
its red rays.
No matter what it was. It was unforgettable.
Love --he used to say
it s beautiful
but its deteriorates and turns shit
he was wrong my Love hasnt deteriorated
it hasnt turned into shit
my life did
Love he used to say
laughing cherubs and circling carousel ride
Indeed he was a poet
and he was right
and he was wrong as well.
What have you left me
he used to write
what have you given me?
nothing
I thought I gave him everything
I love him
I left
because my Love was too much for everyone.
And here I am standing on a Lewes grounds
where me and Him where standing
Lewes stills tands my love stands
but I am so shaky

Dima_Badulaj
It is hard to think straight
It is hard to think at all
Because to simply put you notice with the time that your thinking abilities evaporate with time
It is not that you become more stupid with the age
Though maybe you do.
But still
It is hard to think straight when you in love
You idealise the person
you put him at the pedestal of your love
and worship him

Aramtenek faced the pink hurricane and lost her powers. She knew that she could die. And she almost died. Almost doesn't count though. She knew she would get her power back but when? Who knows? The age of indifference had come. No one shared its powers anymore. No one saw the sunrises. The dark eternal night established itself in the Black Kingdom

Медленно но верно все идет к разводу. И даже немедленно совсем. Плевать на все. После потери моей любимой Д уже ничего не страшно. Я уже не боюсь потери отношений, смерти и так далее. Если Д через все это прошла то и я пройду. Какая же храбрая она была. Не могу больше. Накупила книг сегодня. А времени читать их не будет. Плевать на все вообще. Плевать плевать пойду я спать