I won't drink (more than once a week) and smoke (at least indoors) any more.
here, I promise!

guess I need someone to hold me for a while, it's so damn cold in my room. and I still have some beer in the bottle. it's cold too, but I think I'll finish it nonetheless. there's nothing to lose, anyway, I still won't be able to get warmer, so it won't hurt that bad.
still have no idea what to do to stay awake for at least eight more hours. maybe reading fanfiction will help, idnk.

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do whatsoever, just don't sleep till it's proper time to go to bed.
insomnia and all this fucked up daily routine when day and night trade places must be finally put to an end.
I'm so much tired of this numb feeling in my brain and blurred mind and inner isolation when every social contact needs effort. it just can't go on like this any more.

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waking up in the middle of the night, after only a few hours of sleep, no matter how tired I was in the evening. even if I used sleeping pills.
should go to mom's place in the morning get Selenium for this matter.
and btw remember the Sunday's lesson's due at 3 p.m. this week.

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blues

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moan

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with a little help of my canned friends I can deal with it.
not a big deal after all.

I want to believe understand.