I don't have thoughts in my head; only fears and negative emotions. i react to anything happening around me  like an amoeba to granules of salt - I try to escape. it's not good. right now all i have is consequences of my previous actions and non-actions. I am looking back at 10 years of life. Good morning, Mr Lexapro, How are you? I am good, thanks.

fire ants, high prices, low income, lack of free time, alcohol self treatment, sleep deprivation. there is a place 28.0836° N, 80.6081° W. I like to go every weekend. there is calm, including inner calm.

I've started a new chapter of my life. Not an optimistic beginning. 1 hour in traffic on my way home, grunge radio and could-have-been way of thinking. Life is a shitpie, you just don't know what it's made of until told. It could have been worse if I had not changed it. Maybe It's a rough start and later on I will get accustomed to the taste. I need an eternity to improve my current situation. I need anti-depressants without side effects. I need a healthy wine. I need courage and wisdom.