You say,that startin'takin'things difficult is always the point that smth is wrong.This is exactly so.
I've been through lots of thinkin'lately.So many things that cannot be explained or understood,that it's almost dreadful.it's FUCkin' dreadful!
And it drives me mad.
I've been through lots of memories lately also.One thing did not want to leave me in patience.was I happy?Really really happy.
HAVE I EVER BEEN REALLY HAPPY?
yes.louder.Yeees.louder.please.
YES i'VE BEEN DAMN HAPPY.REALLY FUCKin'HAPPY.
I've been wakin'from the sound of the message from smone i really liked, i had smone to talk to,i was careless about everything-the moment was everything that mattered and was essential for me.i was softer,may be more open,truthful.childish(?)
I had stupid damn believes that all is gonna be okay n that i've got lots of time.a lot of FUCKing time .i lived for the day.
but now everything seems so far away.
i'm damn happy.i'm wakin' from the sound of my watch,knowin'it's time to go.i've little time left.There is no strength in me.
Just flashes before my eyes.
I can't go back.can't change.Can do nothing.
(oh God,is there smth i CAN??)
i'm still thinking of you.even if you are not.
it's never too late.am i?