Sarah, I wanted to tell you something. I actually wrote quite a long
entry but I deleted it in the end. You've been a nice friend and I'm
really glad you've always been there for me. I guess once again I've
chose to keep things to myself. I actually teared just now, when I told
you how wrecked I felt and you suggested to me to get a grip of myself.
The pain inside me is truly unbearable and I still think you don't know
the magnitude of it. I guess that's because I always keep things to
myself and I don't tell stuffs in whole. It's a small matter, just that
it confirms once again that ultimately the people around me can't help
except for myself.



I still think I should try not to be so nice to my friends. I'm sorry.