Настроение сейчас - Hurted and depressed

Everything is ''amazing''!
I could never have imagined that my life would be so "great"!
Thanks to my Mom who makes me so "happy"!
Now there's only hatred in my heart, mostly to everyone..So..sorry if I hurt you..i don't mean that..It's so heavy in my heart..my soul..I don't know what to do..
There're only 2 ways in my future life. And if one of them is failed, you will forget 'bout me,cause I will die..Not physically but..I will die for this world and, may be, revive to another..
And before that..Please,forgive me for what I've done..I'm just stupid little girl who don't know how to live,how to do anything and who is really useless for this world and every person around her.