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Day one: no reaction 25-08-2006 18:54 к комментариям - к полной версии - понравилось!


В колонках играет - 2Pac & Biggie Tribute - City Clay

*falcetto* Caaaan
Anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up, I die a little, can barely stand on my feet. Take a look in the mirror and cry: Lord what are You doing to me? Well, I don't cry because I look weird or something. Nothing wrong here. I cry because I'm lonely.

When I began taking hold of things, I was stupid. I did learn something now. I learned there's no romance in homosexual sex for me. Just something like a form of masturbation. Never tried it though, but I see things happen. I see nothing wrong in being stupid about that for some time. Many boys that would've given their left eye for a snatch came to pleasing themselves, not quite each other, but cooperatively. Some went further.

"Life is endless discovering how foolish you were yesterday." (c)

The more I try to be happy, the more I realize: there's no happiness at all, it's just all made up. You're either all right or not. Nothing positive. Man, should I listen to less goth music!..

Then I thought if I was right. I doubted if I could even be right at all! Doubted if anyone's right! Doubt is not bad, but how do I make decisions?

"What is even God Himself has His own faith?" (c)

Blast it, grab today's picture and leave:
"Wonder where I've been all this time? Ask her!"

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Ya_CanDy_GirL 25-08-2006-19:11 удалить
Приветик!!! Вот путешествую по российским дневникам, наткнулась на твой...Приглашаю в гости на мой дневничок, если решишь стать Постоянным Читателем, ответь пожалуйста на пару вопросиков, там есть мини-анкета для ПЧ... Мне просто интересно, хочу найти новых друзей со всех городов России...
Сванцева 25-08-2006-23:08 удалить
You seem to think a lot about being gay. Are you really that desperate?
Kanapi 26-08-2006-19:14 удалить
Сванцева, I did think a lot about homosexuality and I keep thinking about it now. But somehow, my position has changed. It didn't take much desperacy before. Having sex with a female was something off the horizon. And some guys were out to... get to know me better. I almost found myself falling into it, but one day I said to myself "Shit, do you like guys? No, buddy, that won't do, think and answer again: do YOU like guys?" - "No, I sure don't, I find it disgusting!" And that did it. What made me stop acting stupid was a lesson I was once taught.
A guy called Leo (he's straight and has a girlfriend) hooked me up on the ICQ and said "Hey, I just knew there were a girl you might like to get acquainted with." - "Why's that", I asked. "I see where furry culture's heading: gay orgies and all that shit. I don't want any young members like you get this low. Don't get spoilt by the motherfuckers, choose the right way", he replied. He made me stop and think. And I made my decision. Guys? We can still be friends. Ladies? I'm all yours.


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