жила - была маленкая игоистка. но она не хотела бить такая. Много лет прошло. И она думала што она изменилась.
ТАК НЕБЫВАЕТ.
Но она не верила...

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Так.....
Вчера я што-то сделала.

No,I can't take it anymore. English'es better.

Where was I...

Yesterday was an interesting day.
Sending energy to others makes me feel sentimental.
I knew how they feel like. Hope it helped.

Heh, I found out one mistifying thing yesterday [too].
Well...Maybe I drew AN ANALOGY
[hope not]

If it isn't so,i'm looking forwards for some really big changes....


Post sriptum- Annum Novum Faustum Felicem

Подумала, што надо писуть по-рускомму яазику, но этот шрифт- какая-то трагедия для меня- как и этот язык..... Што-то понимаю.....

Sorry for all the mistakes i'll make (or for those i've already done). It's hard...

High sensetiveness/low sensetiveness.
These two things are defenetly antonimous.
But it's possible to have them both. I do.
Whatever.

Thrilling day. I don't know what even think.
Whatever.
I need a consultation.

(...)
Oh no.
And again- whatever.

As someone said, love continues for three years.
I thought so too.
But not now.
Way too boring.


By the way,why is that so that when you want to run away from somethings,it always cathes you?
Or,as others say, - run from a wolf,get onto the bear.
Don't know yet....

When someone said ,that there are eleven more days left till new year, I didn't believe. It feels much longer.
New year....It gives us a New Chance. A New Hope, that after midnight starts new life and all the things sank in the mud.
Think,how You will spend those minutes.
How you spend that day,that's how you'll live all year. It's so true. So,think carefully.

I just read an article about thoughts... It feels very optimistic.
I used my thoughts for helping myself(is that bad?...), I know it'll help...
Heh...I feel so happy,as those things are happening now....
Believe and you will receive!..
Our subliminal minds take every our thought and do everything to realise them-if not today,then after few months...
Just believe in it....

I wonder why people,when they get sick, take care of their organs. Bu the promblem's not there! It's in our minds!...I can tell you a story of one women's life.
Let me call that women Eve.
Eve was a perfect homewife.All those works at home were really pleasant for her. She always made dinner at the time,and when Eve had time,she even sewed wonderful wear for her children.
Her problem sticked out when she had to go outside,to shop or somewhere else. She got throes,high pulse and she was in a cold swear. Eve thought," what if happens something bad? Who would help my children,husband house?..."
Finnaly,Eve stopped going to shops,church,parents meetings at school... Even the poeple stopped from coming over,because that coused Eve's faints.
Eve appealed to psychologist for help. Psychologist used mesmerising. That showed four biggest troubles,that traumatized her...
Eve was very sensitive.Every quarrel was as a stroke for her. Husband loved her,but he didn't value her sensetiveness.So,she was alone with her pain and black thoughts. That means,that her subliminal mind was fed by killing poisons.
Psychogist treated her by suggestion. Eve was healthy,then.
But after two years she returned to the psychologist. Eve had a cancer. Psychologist treted her by suggestion,again.
Eve regained her health.
She said to her freinds,that that illness returned her to life.She defeated the cancer and her phobia.
Maybe sickness sometimes is like a present of fate?....


We can look at sickness differently-we can look at different organs or at whole human.,where's everything tied up together. But every treating,which doesn't get to the roots of the sickness, is just a huggering-muggering up of unwelcome symptom. (that does the medicine in nowadays.)

Remember,
Subliminal mind,which was fed by killing thoughts,can wait long time and then return for attack. No need to get defeated to her!....

Долго не писала....

I've got a lot of good ideas just waiting to be realised.... Whenever...

Well,i done one thing today for what i'll be very sorry-i know. who cares.

So....i don't even know what to write...It too late,my mind is empty....
Oh well...

Goo d night mates!

Olin Suomessa kesalla.
I love Finland,though. The journey was very soulful. .. Just for remembering it... I promised for my self that I will return to that place...But not alone. (..)
I left a few words at Hanko. They mean a lot to me...(hope not only for me...)
~~~~

Today I read one man's thoughts. He wrote that there aren't Good and Evil. That everyone thinks differently about the deeds and just from their position.In short-there's nothing,just possessive look.
Agree. People just think that, but who knows what's good and evil after all?...
Exactly. People find out it by looking at themselves; "how does it govern to me and only to me". That's a bad attitude. If they think that they can say what is what,then they should take a look from other position;to look how it governs to most of the people.

What a heck. I'm tired to write everything up. Even when someone's bothering me and then my thoughts just gets out.
Que mudo.

What I was trying to say is that mankind was/is/will be a big nonsense. A big mistake for the Maker.
We can do mistakes.
But not those,which destroys us.

Labanakt.

" All I ever wanted to do,It was to feel You near. To live with knowing that I'm needed. To know that I can be the Silence In Your Eyes... To know that I was right about believing in Fate.
And You felt Me. We felt each other throught the Emotional Channel.
You didn't want to be misunterstood,so You were silent.NO one knew.
And we both waited. And we waited for so long...

~Still waiting...~

And I'm still dreaming of a place
Where I could see Your face..."

You don't have to see it,You have to feel it...
~Quietness~

....satisfagamos en los suenos...
...buenos noches....

Well,today I'll write about love to the plants. About the love we should take care off. I think almost everyone here knows Vladimir Megre and his books about Anastasia. It's a perfect guide how to live.
I often think about her words. And today I felt that she is helping me.Helping to uphold my love for the plants. It was a strange feeling,but I should go with it.
Just talk to your plants,smile for them,look after them. They can feel to. And they do everything to make us feel better. Just try to see it.
Tommorow I'm going to a shop to buy some new flowers. It makes me feel better. I like taking care of something.-if not of my heatbreaking person,then I can give all the love to the plants. They appreciate that. Just try to feel it.

Today I thought about mind and love. There was a question- "Could the mind and love save the world?"..
Of course",-I thought.
But as I said earlier, humans are too clever or not clever enough. Allthough, they're not clever enough. They just don't understand.
Mostly the suspense( or the forgetfulness?..) is a bad thing.
Then I realised another thing about religions. They are very similar.Lord wants to bring us back where we should be. I don't want to repeat,but as I said,we don't hear.

By the way,I'm not a catholic fanatic. (Maybe it sounds like that?...)I'm more in to buddhism (othervise,it's more like teaching...but no matter). I just like to think about everything. And I don't care what other says. I am who I am. I don't like playing someone.


I heard today some beautiful voices from opera. It was amazing. Even if I like to sing, I wouldn't want to sind in the opera. I don't like vibrating voice.Sometimes it gets really annoying,though.

Kill,Kill!! Aren't You bored?...
But nobody is listening...

Just....Playing deaf....

Why should I care about Them?...

Whatever...

Hasta luego, senores y senoras asesinos!...

Now I can write up all my thoughts...I don't think that someone would see this diary....So-the begining...
Yo penso sombre todo...
The best thing is that no one know's what's in my stupid mind. (I don't like talking about that.) No one knows what's in my heart too. ..

Love is precious thing.Even the unhappy love. It makes us more matured spiritually. It makes us improve.
Love could save the world,though.
So where's the problem?
The problem is in the people. They think that they are very lucky living in a such dirty world. They made all the bad stuff.
The nature is behind. The nature is our real shelter. So why need all those machines and the other mechanical stuff? No way..We don't need them.
Everything was perfect until the Humans. We all made the dirt. If we weren't so "clever",we would be living happily in the forests with no troubles and deseases. But no....They MUST go agaist the nature. Allthough,we are a bunch of freaks living in a nasty world that we made it to be like. We're living in traffic fumes and still "lucky". Then not for long. I think I wasn't the only one who saw that crazy things are happening...I'm talking about all the storms,tornados,floods and etc. all around the world. It's the signals from Beyond.
Let's hear it. All those things could happen in about 4 years that now are happening in few weeks....
Just listen and hear then...
Sounds stupid. Pero es mi diario,so I write whether I want.

до встрече.

Buenos noches!..
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