Posledniy ots4et.
Fini6naya pryamaya.
O6u6eniya????!!
{Weird. Sad. Unbeliveavble.}
Ah, da nu i kone4no je MEGAhappy...
... vot tolko uje na drugom kontinente, v drugoi 4asti sveta, 4erez 16 dney...

It's time 2 pack my luggage - best memories & most awesome days.
Depressions & broken dreams I'm leavin' in my old closet, one day somebody will clean it out.

Pervomay-2006. Tak vot. * .
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... vse proyasnilos' v moey golove...
....finally........
.......about time, xex.......

P.S.........i vse je neskazanno rada))))........>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

-Depressiya??!!!
-Killin' time??!!
-4to my delaem, 4tob razveyatsya??/
-Pravilno, traxaem mozgi mal4ikam v msnke.



*MEGAsteb. 1oo%no ulu4waet nastroeniye.

blablablablabla.

Happy late easter. Happy late catholic easter. Nakonecto zakon4ilas' eta MEGAcrazy week. From catfightin' @ school & gettin' in trouble*....

*3 days of ISS. Ndaaa, nikogda ne dumala 4to sideniye v zamknutom malenkom prostranstve kajdyy den' po 7 4asov naneset takoi nepopravimyy uwerb moey nervnoi sisteme i sdelaet menya 'slegka' paranoikom. [ hmm...pohoje devo4ka-isterika vozvrawaetsya].


......to gardenin' & paintin' easter eggs kak primernaya country girl LOOOOOOOOL.

A potom easter - eggs, raskrawennye flomasterami, tupie kroliki povsyudu, glupie sarafan4iki i yubo4ki, otvratitelnye 6okoladnye konfety, gamburgery, hot-corn dogi, Dr.pepper etc, dalwe mojno ne prodoljat'. Izvrawennaya versiya moego lubimogo semeynogo prazdnika....

Nastroenyice??????? Hmmmmmm. Should I get on pills???? Stop being stressed out??????......with my depression #1111...00.0000.

Thinkin' thinkin' thinkin'. Kak zamknutyy krug v golove. May b it's just time 2 admit...
...I messed up my life recently. I'm stuck in the same endless thoughts with the same silly feelings. Pora vybiratsya.


P.S. One month left... 2 quit.

"Reality is a porno with stupidity instead of fuckin'". (c)

Reality Show. That's it. We finally figured out what we can compare IT to. One place. A long period of time. A lot of different ppl. Different lives & opinions that cause endless fights. And there is no way out 'cuz u canNot eliminate the wrong person. U just have 2 put up with it. Somebody bitches, somebody snitches... what's ur role here gonna b??
At first u don't understand it. U'r tryin' to figure what's goin' on, who's who, tryin' 2 find ur role. Then u fit in & start playin', u even enjoy it @ first. But then after certain moment u start hatin' it like the worst thing in ur life. But u already came up to the stage when it's 2 late 2 stop. This is wnen u realize that u'r addicted 2 it like 2 the strongest drug.It's like oxygen: u cannot quit breathin' - u cannot quit playin'. And u keep on goin', hatin' it with every cell of ur body, but goin' on and on and on...


The question is...what's gonna happen when it'll be over????

K 4emu eto ya???... Da tak. Tak vot my jivem.


So, let's play??....

*Xex, ulybnuli menya taki segodnya ludi))) LOL

* Hmmmm.... looks like it's startin' again... Nu 4to j porazvlekaemsya, po4emu bu net??? Raz uj u nas takie tut razvle4eniya. Zabavno. Vot tolko uje nikogo jalko ne budet na etot raz... Here it comes.

"Sekundnaya skorost' yazyka doljna byt' vsegda nemnogo menwe sekundnoy skorosti mysli, a uje nikak ne naoborot."

E. I. Zamyatin, "My"

Daje ne budu pisat' pro vse osobennosti pervogo dnya dolgojdannoi vesny...

...prosto ya dolgojdannno s4astliva!!!...

...4ujie problemy prosto zae**li, a rewat' ih tem bolee...


!!Fucked up & pissed off!!

Vyhodnye na splo6nom pozitive!! Banalnost': vse horowee bystro kon4aetsya, a jal'. Eto bylo awesome & crazy at a time!!!! Breakin' the rules & havin' fun!!! That's what weekends for))))
Tak vse srazu blizko stalo... I'm waiting 4 it 2 repeat!!

В колонках играет - Kelly Clarkson, Breakaway

Sluhi, spletni, razgovory i ih obryvki, telefonnye i li4nye, pereglyadyvaniya, pere6eptyvaniya, perepisyvaniya, intrigi - celyy potok. A ya v centre. Takoe vezde, no v meste s naseleniem 1000, eto X100. Ih jizn' sku4na i odnoobrazna, im ne4ego delat', ne o 4em govorit', odno i to je izo dnya v den'. Over & over. A tut vdrug 4to-to za 4to mojno ucepitsya, peretirat' mnogo-mnogo raz i polu4at' ot etogo neperedavaemoe udovletvoreniye. 2 bad, guys. 2 much drama. Soap-opera,cheap soap-opera.
Etih bednyh, glupih i smewnih ludey daje jal'. Bessmyslenno, i unylo jit' v predelah goroda "N", a tut takoi entertainment. Nu 4to j razvlekaytes', detiwki, mne ved' toje veselo.

Pozitivnyy den'..))) Otli4naya solne4naya pogoda. Svejee utro posle no4nogo dojdya. Ya obojayu zapah etoy svejesti - takoe neobyknovennoe pred4uvstvie vesny. Daje sku4nye pustye uroki kajutsya koro4e.
Nu a vobwe ya segodnya devuwka zanyataya. Vydala "detiwkam" celuyu lekciyu pro Rossiyu na uroke geografii. Vse taki nado je kak-to obyasnit' ludyam, 4to my ne huje ih jivem: sobak my ne edim (pust' ne smotryat na menya kak na devo4ku-dikarku), i macfuck u nas est' (pust' ne perejivayut, eto zlo po hodu pravit mirom), nu i kone4no je my znaem kak polzovatsya kondicionerom... kone4no je priwlos nemnogo pootve4at' na voprosy iz rubriki: "na kakom yazyke razgovarivayut v Rossii??? " "Iz Rossii li Gitler???" ili ewe kru4e: "kak vawi sobaki ponimayut komandy, esli vy ne razgovarivaete po-angliiski?". Eto bylo prosto hilarious, laugh out loud, pa-lubomu. Menya oby4no kone4no jutko vyvodyat iz ravnovesiya tupye ludi, no eto bylo prosto LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLL!!!!!! hahahahahaah. K tomu je bylo priyatnoe 4uvstvo, 4to hot' kogo-to ya prosvetila segodnya, pravda 4uvstvuyetsya nenadolgo, sliwkom uj bysrto vse vyvetrivaetsya iz ih glupenkih golovuwek.
A potom - 2h 4asovaya softball practice, na teplom fevralskom solnywke. Dumaetsya, ewe nedelka i ya neploho zagoryu)) Pod konec mne uje kazalos' 4to moya ruka sroslas' s etoy per4atkoi, a vokrug letayut belye mya4iki. LOL. Zato kakaya priyatnaya fizi4eskaya ustalost po vsemu telu...) MEGArelaxation.
A doma zdorovyy & exoti4eskii aziatskii obed ot moey koreyskoy "sojitelnicy".
Zato sey4as - studyin' studyin' & studyin'. EGE eto e***noe!!!! HATE it(( Vobwem ya segodnya busy girl, tak skazat'.

P.S. Zavtra edem v cityt na field trip s NHS!!! UHUUUU!! !!!!! EXCITED!!!!!

... ya SEGODNYA kak-to bespri4inno s4astliva...
segodnya:
~ ya edu velosipede po country road in the midddle of nowhere, mahayu vsled proezjayuwim mimo mawinam, ulybayus' solncu i rasslablenno dumayu o 4em-to horowem.
~ ya smotryu na vse 4erez o4ki nejno-rozovogo cveta.
~ ya prosto zabyla, 4to u menya est' mnogo4islennye problemy i voprosy, kotorye jdut svoih razreweniy i otvetov.
~ mne zahotelos' po4uvstvovat' 4to ya s4astliva, nesmotrya na to 4to ne slu4ilos' ni4ego horowego.
~ ya cenila kajdoe mgnovenie etogo obyknovennogo i stranno radostnogo dnya.


....Segodnya ya po4uvstvovala vesnu....

This was a freaking crazy day!!!!!... A ved' na4inalos' vse s lenivogo voskresnogo utra.
Getting out of warm bed around noon. Cereal & hot cofffee na zavtrak. A potom wake-up call ot sosedey to 4to ves' our neighbourhood caught on fire. Prosto kto-to rewil poest' BBQ s utra poranwe. 4erez 10 minut my po4uvstvovali zapah goryawey na zadnem dvore dvore travy, a ewe 4erez 5 ya sudorojno iskala svoi pasporta, vizu, strahovku, drugie dokumenty i spasala svoyu kollekciyu of teddy bears. A dalwe - sogrebat' vse 4to popalos' pod ruku iz vewey, bejat' k mawine i ehat' v neizvestnom napravlenii podalwe ot pojara. Nu i kone4no je we're out of gas in the middle of nowhere in our pijamas with our purses & cell phones left at home... Huje byt' ne mojet!! Menya prosto probilo na isteriku ot vsey neleposti etoy situacii. LOL. Nu neadekvatnaya ya dev4oka, can't help it.
K s4astyu vse obowlos'. Komu to iz nawih sosedey rewil spasatsya ot pojara v tom je napravlenii 4to i my. Tolko bolee razumnye ludi zahvatili s soboy telefon. Sweeet.My spaseny dom ne sgorel. Vse 4udesno, a mne po4emu to vse ewe veselo.
.....Nervous breakdown....
Daaa, vot uj deystvitelno freaky sunday.
2morrow - no school, daje i ne podumayu!!!! Tak vot. Shopping, shopping, shopping in the city 2 get rid of my stress & be relaxed - vot moya terapiya.(& my incurable disease(c))

Naponyatnyy weekend. Nepriyatnyy osadok. Ludi kotoryh ne znala. Zato bolwie ojidaniya. Tak vsegda. Ho4u kogda nibud' naity vse vewi kotorye poteryala. Vse taynoe stanovitsya yavnym(C), kak v detskom rasskaze pro mal4ika Denisa Korableva. 4to so mnoy proishodit???? A mojet prosto fevral'??????

Moi samyy neponyatnyy mesyac, ili depressiya po raspisaniyu.

...[SAD & FRUSTRATED]...

...Vremya, vremya tak netoroplivo
Le4it, le4it nam rany fal6ivo....

No school.

Warm blanket.

Hot coffee.

White chocolate.

Cigarette.

Cinnamon&Apple.

Favourite music.

Interesting book.

Nice thoughts.

Perfect dreams.


I'M RELAXED. I'M COMPLETELY SATISFIED. I ENJOY IT. I LIKE IT.

i.t. i.s m.y. p.e.r.f.e.c.t. l.a.z.y. e.v.e.n.i.n.g.

~before my perfect partying weekend~

Net, nu skajite pojalsta!!.... Fuhhhhhh...

Da, ya zzzzzlaya, zzzzlaya, zzzlaya segodnya na odnogo 4eloveka. Eto nado bylo ooo4en' silno postarat'sya, potomu 4to ya uje vrode davno kak uravnovewennaya & spokoinaya devo4ka bez nameka na isteriku. Nu 4to j it was GREAT TRY ya skaju, tk lalalalalalala - it's hysteric time now!!!!!!!!!!!!! 6as by takoe zakatila ... no ne budu moe lubimoe "ne zdes', ne v eto vremya" menya kak oby4no sderjivaet.






No ya kak istinnyy optimist prodoljayu jit' na pozitive, to biw' jdu ne dojdus' vyhodnyh. Poskorey by, poskorey by, poskorey by!!!!)))))

!!!!!!![E.X.C.I.T.E.D] !!!!!!!

Настроение сейчас - Kapriznoe!.

Kapriznaya. Ya segodnya. Uje zabyla 4to zna4it byt' vrednoi infantilnoy devo4koi, kotoroy ya 4asten'ko used 2 be. USED 2 BE. No ne zdes', ne v eto vremya. Segodnya o5 ho4u byt' malenkoy kaprizuley. lol.

Ho4u...tulpanov. Bolwih, krasnyh, pritorno pahnuwih. So4nyh bytonov v bolwoy prozra4noy vaze, 4tob iz 4ernyh seredinok sypalas' jeltaya pylca...





............... I................W..A..N..T...........S..P..R..I..N..G.................

* Nakonec-to 4uvstvuyu sebya zdorovym rebenkom (tfu-tfu!!) nadoelo byt' zavisimoy ot ledencov ot kawlya & kapel' v nos. URAURA)

* Na dnyah posmotrela zame4atelnyy film nazyvaetsya 'IF ONLY'. Vesma interesnyy sujet pro deja vue, nepredskazuemoe ste4eniye obstoyatelstv, silnye 4uvstva i krasivuyu lubov'. Zadumyvaew'sya a 4to by ty sdelal esli ostalsya vsego liw' odin den' na zemle, kak mojno ego potratit'?? Interesno, interesno. Vobwem ya byla vpe4atlena.

* V pervyy raz v svoey jizni delala videoclip. Zabavno my podowli k etomu tvor4eskomu zadaniyu, o4 zabavno. A-la 60e, retro,interesnenko polu4ilos'. Vse uje zapisano ostalos' tolko otredaktirovat'. Nadeyus' eta mymra kotoraya vedet u nas SPEECH/DRAMA budet nakonecto udovletvorena. Tak vot!!

* V kotoryy raz s sojaleniyem ubejdayus' 4to nawi Ninnekah Owls, to biw' basketball team prosto suckers. Net, nu produt' 65:0 na County tournament eto je pozzzor. Moe 4udesnoe fanatskoe nastroenie & cheer spirit v kotorom ya prebyvala ves' den' bystro uletu4ilos'((((( LLLLLLLLLLosers.

* Nu i nakonec. Segodnya mne prislali pervuyu simpatiyu. It was really nice & unexpected!! Thanx a lot, some1s_russian!!!:)) Postoyanno 4itayu etot dnevnik o4. tvor4eskaya & neordinarnaya devuwka. Poka ne mogu prislat' otvetnuyu za neimeniem 20 postov v moem dnevnike, no simpatiya za mnoy;)) Tak 4to ewe raz bolwoe spasibo!!

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