Please cross your fingers for me so I will book this another wedding I got request for today. Its referral again and I bumped my $$$ a little but still feel it is fare price- hopefully I will get it!!!

I have a feeling this year is going to be extremely great for me!!! Past year was filled with so many extreme memories and turning points in my life- I almost know it changed me and I became a better person. But who am I to decide? I guess I only can hope to be the best me I can and only time will tell.
So, to draw a brief draft of my 2008 accomplishments, I will try to point out what had happened:
In two weeks after my birthday I separated with my husband;
In two months after that I got a really cool job and finished my first semester in college;
I started dating American guy, thought I fall in love and escaped from reality;
I met really cool people (photographers and models) and worked with them on different projects that helped me discover who I am as an artist;
I did 5 weddings and to me it is HUGE accomplishment in your first year as a photographer... I am personally proud of myself; a little... :))
I made friends with Katie Neal and she is very sweet girl who thinks I am great photographer LOL LOL :)) she is my second shooter of choice.
My daughter keeps me busy and surprised all the time, she tells me she loves me and that I am such a good mom - it means the world to me :))
I go to TN for a wedding of G's friends;
I IM with Robert Evans and Dane Sniders- they are celeb photogs and great people to talk to!!!!
I read twilight series 4 times and fall in love with the story and movie.
I sign up with photography mentor and pictage;
I break up with my boyfriend;
My friend is pregnant;
Our divorce is final;
Mom comes to visit us for holidays...

See nothing special in my 2008... But somehow it leaves such a heavy footprint on my life journey....plus there are still few days left for this year to change my life and bring on new surprise yet again....

All pictures look awful here....
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why would it optimize my images????? I hate it....totally ruin quality
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I got to go to work :(((((
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Life goes on....
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ome pics to update here :))))
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MXmas to you all!!!!!
I am having relaxed day at home with my fam! :) Getting ready to go see a movie and drink Starbucks! ;)))

For the past few days I have been recieveing gifts and little things from people I would less expect- total strangers at work brought me cards thanking me for all the "hard" work I do, my employees who make less money and struggle bought me christmas gift and brought me to tears by the things they wrote in card, my customer brought me stuff for scrapbooking and told me I should keep everything and continue to scrapbook- all of it made me rethink this year and my outlook on things- everything is actually not bad. I actually love this world that I am living in right now. :))

I love it!!!!!
Thanks to free theme I found online - my BB looks just like an iPhone now so bright and clear and with cool looking block icons you would find on iPhone or iPod touch.
Well last night was rather boring: I drove mom to the shoes' store, but took a nap in a car waiting for her- did not feel like shopping. Then my GPS took us to the ice cream store which was closed for business *note to myself- call next time* so we drove around for an hour looking for something {sweet} and ended up in Greaters. Now our original plan was gym. I still feel bloated from all the ice cream we had last night.
Well hopefully we will make it to the gym today.

Ok, I just tried to add comment to Helen' page but I guess she closed access to it or smth, so my all typing went bye bye- just wasted like 10 minutes of my life typing response to smth that is NOT going to change Anything,
Anyway thought I'd post it here so ppl will know what I think about parents leaving their children to die in their cars and not going to jail for it.
Last two summers we had this happen in our town!!! I still remember turning off every radio station on my way to work raving about mom leaving her daughter in a car ( and should I add her birth daughter not adopted) and not going to jail for it- just got tired of listening to same story over and over again. Yes that mom too did not end up in jail but eventually in a mental institution. She had and older kid and a husband who forever turned his back on her and she could not cope by herself, got locked up forever haunted by the memory of what she had done. I don't even want to go into details of how I would feel in her shoes, I think she has been interviewed by Oprah and even looked recovering for a little bit but no- I do not believe she will ever recover. Moving on to another couple - mom went out of her routine stopped for coffee and forgot her 18 month old who died of overheating *again* when people are still talking about the first one, still grieving about their loss. She did not go to jail either, but had to move to a diff city and state- her family did offer support but others did not. Or how about this foster family- they went on TV asking for any help - allegedly their son was kidnapped. I still remember that mom screaming- just give me my boy back... Or wait- that was Angie in her new movie lot... Anyway, investigators found out later that foster parents killed their son at home and burned his remains- both are now in jail for a lifetime. Oh wait there is that crazy woman too- her husband asked for divorced she could not take it anymore, strapped her kids in a car and drove into lake- she survived, but all three kids died. She is in jail too, but will it explain to others WHAT the hell was wrong with her??? What was she thinking??? Ok and then there is that crazy angry daddy who killed his wife and set the house on fire while his three sleeping kids were still inside- his excuse: he was sure they are at grandparents that night- yeah - lifetime for him as well. But my point is- if we zoom in on ANY town, ANY country, any generation, we will find that cruel, horrible, unexplained things happen every day to all kinds of people and ordinary person becomes crazy in a matter of one little second!!! The normal human response is to judge, blame, hate and so on, it is so much easier and so much more NORMAL!!! I especially like when ppl act like they know exactly what happened and why and what should be done to make things right. Do you think sending that dad to jail will fix anything? Will send message to others- jails obviously don't work- we would not have crime for centuries if they would. Leaving him on a loose? Others will use his example to get away with killing children??? You obviously not a parent or you should know what joy it is to be a parent even in the most difficult times and how hard it is to adopt from another country!!!!! Don't judge but find compassion and understanding for others. Remember Bible? Ne sudi I ne sudim budesh. Every culture has a flaw, every country has few too many, it is so much easier to be hater then to be open minded and give love to others. I know it sounds corny but it is true. There is no right or wrong - a family lost a little boy. It is tragedy. Nothing to do with him being from Russia- it is sad when ppl use somebody tragedy to prove something- see, Americans are such ass holes, etc. - what about russians coming to usa and abusing system to get benefits, mexicans working illegally, husbands cheating on their wives, fathers sexually abusing their children, homeless cats and dogs, corrupted cops and politics, low incomes and high prices, stupid ppl and dirty bathrooms- I mean really I can go on and on!!!! Life sucks but it is how you look at things and how you react. Do not exclude, be inclusive and pray and hope nothing like that ever happens to someone you know or love!!!!!

My day started so cool- I burned my breakfast in microwave and set off fire alarms which woke up everyone in the house: kids are crying, adults freaking out and running around with crazy wide opened eyes!!! Then, when I finally managed to get to work without killing anyone or running over, I found three jammed printers and one burned scanner lamp... OK pretty much straight forward solutions- change lamps, un-jam printers, lol, right? But no - I get so busy that my customers are lining up to get their orders in on time for holidyas and everyone need to talk to me, ask for advice, help, opinion, lol. But overall I somehow am having a GREAT day!!! 5 days till Christmas!!!!

My {older}phone died last night and I had to go to the store and get replacement. I did love my Rant but it was limited to some extent, did not have flash on camera and did not show full web pages. So I got blackberry instead. I had to smile and be very nice to a sales person and I got it absolutely free. I love it. Absolutely love it.

столько всего хочется УМНОГО написать, да рассказат
- а так влом... ну её, мудрость жизненную.... :)))
вселенная, дай мне и моему ребёнку здоровья, а все остальное приложится.

I have made a desicion to just grow personaly and worry about my little girl, the right guy will come along.

Sitting here  in my new residence { again} , drinking coffee and thinking.

Within 9 months  my life took extreme turn. I am not sure if it is a good turn or bad- but it took me forward. I moved 4 times, my daughter is no longer sure where is our {home} and I am not sure if and when I will finaly settle down somewhere. I am always on a movie- and strange thing is I HATE IT. I would love to settle. Well anyway, I am just going to focus on my child, my job and getting my PGC in a ew month, then going to Russia for a few weeks and then going back home. With this year tax refund I hope to be able to invest in my photo business the way I want and by next year to be able to stay busy ad work full time as a photographer. I am pretty sure I will still have my Manager job just for security of income at least two more years, and, believe it or not, I AM going back to school. I figured, I do not need GD or special degree in photography- since I am planning to attend workshops and such, but I am lacking knoledge in business field- so that is where I am gonna be headed.

Getting ready to leave- going to be a photographer at somebody's baptizing ceremony! :) 

I LOVED IT!!!!!

What a great movie- very simple, nothing crazy seems like it was made with home video camera and so many girls are going relate to it! :))) It is going to be HUGE! I am glad I went to see it!!!!

noboy can help me.

Girls I have seen your phone calls- was busy with Gabby and will call you back tomorrow- after my divorce is FINAL!!!! LOVE YALL!

Finally I am going to show off my DD in style.. PICS are all by me and yes you are right- she is such a beauty! :))) 

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