I love Facebook, don't get me wrong. But something about "status updates" that's making me think like that- in random status updates. I am not sure if I like it or not. But I better change my diary name from Pink Dreams to Random thoughts! LOL.... For example:

I think I am going to sell my soul to sushi and file bankrupt after: most of my cash goes to Japanese Gods of Sushi. Is it good? Is it bad? Am I going to be poor? Am I going to get Mercury poisoning from all the fish I consume? Am I going to ever get tired of it? Sushi makes me happy- therefore I continue to consume it.

Guys. Sex. Relationship. Screw it all. I have this void inside of me, and none of the above can full fill it. Even sushi. I made a decision to give up sex. WHOA! Hold your horses, I meant sex on the first date and drinking until I black out. That's been a problem lately. When I wake up I am not sure at which point I passed out exactly. Was it with his cock in my mouth or someplace else? What did we do last night at all??!! This intense genitals rubbing when you don't even remember it is really unpleasant. I feel I am disconnecting from myself. This partying got to stop.

This all is really screwed up! The worst is I am reaching out to someone whom I hurt very badly once. Seeking redemption? Or is it Karma?

Why am I over analizing? Everything.

Sometimes I wonder how so many different emotions can live within me???!!! I go through such an emotional rollacoaster it's unbelievable! ::)) I mean I normally very happy and positive person, but sometimes I feel so lonely and don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone because I feel ugly and "unwanted". But then again within seconds I change my mind ad call someone up and there I am again, center of a party!!!! Some people just say- oh, well, you are a girl after all what do you expect??!! LOL But I am so sick and tired of this. I just want to be happy. I am honestly tired of dating. I just want one normal, kind guy who is not scared to settle down and compromise and who can give love and make me happy. Is that too much to ask? I've got all those guys all over me and it is so hard to tell if they are being genuine or just thinking to "get" me as another score??!!

Anyhow. I am busy. Social life is booming. Photography is sooo busy. Everything is really good! Promise!

I am reading again!! YAY!

guys are all son of a bitches and just want to fuck. they just want to get in your pants. that is the truth. that is their only goal and motivation to be nice to you and to even talk to you. after they are done they might stick around for a little bit and then most likely will pursue the next pussy on their list. that IS the truth and I am OK with that. More then that I feel like that is the only thing they are good for right now. sex. I want no-one permanent. I want to fuck like a rabbit and to have fun. I hate guys to be honest with you. they all are true ass holes. I will always have a memory of one guy who was an asshole, but the best of all of them. :))))


and now all I want is to fuck. isn't it awful. I mean what kind of person I am after all? I got guys texting me non stop. Like today I've had three guys asking me out and I picked one and had such an amazing time with him and we even made out a little and then I sent him home. Cause I got to tame him a little for the next time. But it seems he will be OK in bed. And that is ALL I am thinking about. And then once he left I texted another guy and talked on the phone with him for a bit. Sex only. With this one too. And then I've got an e-mail from a very sweet old ex and that made me so happy and ...horny. All I could think about was how nice would it be to get together right now and just fuck. Is it just me, age, or vodka? Fuck. And then I just noticed this guy I went out on a date today took my belly button ring off while playing with it.. why? ass hole.

Good night.

I am such a looser!

So I went to this nice restaurant today called Beluga. It is upscale Sushi restaurant with contemporary feel to it and it is located in Hyde Park- it is freaking amazing! :)))) And wile there I've noticed all those couples of people running on a streets together- Hyde Park is very famous for it's running crowds as it is very easy to run in their streets.... Maybe I should run in that area more often to hook up with that kind of guy who likes to run? And guys there all looking nice, girls.. like really nice... and the whole crowd in Beluga is very interesting.... :))))


Oh, and their sushi rolls and Green Tea Cream Brule is also to die for!

How's life peeps?

I am super duper busy. Working out. Eating healthy. Lost 8lbs so far - LOVING IT!!!! Being really good about eating healthy, not more then 200 cal per meal, even less sometimes, also the emotions of this new relationship helps too... I smell fall in the air and I LOVE IT! When it is still sunny and kind of warm if you wear the jacket and everything is just so pretty outside- it is going to be a beautiful season for photography! :)))

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There is NOTHING like the thrill and excitement of a new and developing relationships! Especially with the guy who is intelligent and just so sweet and fun- we can talk about more then just what's our favorite food and drinks! And he knows what city is Capital of Russia and also have been to the half of the world and can actually TEACH me things and CHALLENGE ME!!!! ....But he says I am the one who's teaching and challenging as he never met quite exquisite and delightful beautiful lady in his life. I mean, I've never had guys reference to me in such manner! LOL Or call me LADY? lol.... we are separated by thousand of miles and yet I feel like I know him forever! :) It is so much fun! :))) I've actually met a guy who talks more then me ( or AJ hahaha)!!!!

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хочу такой проэкт замутить.... все что люблю наверняка фотографировать и постить. просто всё. пожелайте мне удачи. :)

мне бы сейчас спать и спать- ан нет, сижу возле компьютера который час. напилась кофейку и вперёд, обрабатывать фотографии.

вчера конечно денёк выдался на славу! я такого стресса уже оч давно не переживала. все есть на моём про фото блоге, если у кого есть желание - можите почитать... всё тут http://www.mmworks.us/blog/?p=869


завтра поездка к Ленчику- я так счастлива! просто одно слово ФЛОРИДА у меня вызывает улыбку до ушей, а когда я знаю что там будут ещё Лена и Андрю ( плюс Натали) - настроение у меня просто супер! Жаль что кое кто не приедет, не будем упоминать имён! :)) В следующий раз!

Я как обычно долго долго не писала и вот обьявилась- поэтому в этот раз не буду обещать, что скоро напишу, или ещё того хуже что буду писать каждый день- нет это уж вряд ли- через чур жизнь у меня напряжённая и времени свободного практически нет. Если время позваляет зависнуть в интернете, то трачу его на маркетинг в основном. А нужно бы на себя любимую! :)) Время на личную жизнь приходится выделять вообще просто смешным образом- помечаю крестиком в календарике в какие вечера я свободна и могла бы сходить на свидания- крестиков в календарике честно скажу не густо. в этом месяце пока только два! :)) Габриэлка уже большая девочка, постоянно меня удивляет своей сообразительностью, хорошей памятью и любознательностю. Иногда конечно она меня доводить до белого каления! И это очень сложно в принципе и чаще всего я просто молчу и мне достаточно посмотреть на неё строго и она успокаивается, но иногда приходиться конечно пугать её всякими там Бабами Ёжками и Карабасами Барабасами! :))))


В октябре, а точнее 31 Октября приезжают мои дорогие мамулья и Ингвар! :))) Так за ними скучаю, может удасться мне уговорить их переехать в Америку, хотя бы через пару лет- так хочется жить рядышком с мамулей, а Ингвар просто золото!!!! В последнее время у меня к маме такая нежная любовь! Нет вы меня поймите правильно я и раньше еио просто обожала, но вйсакое бывало, ссорились, как все, но многие конфликты были между нами неразрешины, как то умолчаны, а вот сейчас вроде всё встало на свои места, особенно когда я развелась и осталась одна с ребёнком, как и моя мама когда то давно со мной! И мне многое стало ясно и понятно! :)))) И сейчас она действительно мой самый лучший друг и самый любимый человек на земле!!!!


По приезду домой от Лены хочу с подружкой с работы сесть на арбузную диету- пожелайте мне удачи- всего лишь 5ть дней, 6ть раз в день питаемся арбузом! :)))) Легко и экономично. Главное не помереть! :)))


Всех люблю и целую
Ваша Лика.

I was up way earlier ( at 5 to be correct) to do laundry, work out and cook).. well to my biggest disappointment I am short a quarter and I can't dry my clothes so no point in washing it... :( will have to do later tonight, after returning from the gym.. off I go...

постоянное недосыпание- хорошо что есть кофе!!!!

я моя новая причёска,,для нового блога... :))))
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сидела пол ночи рисовала новое лого....

завтра утром пересмотрю- может и не понравится.... но пока именно то, что задумывала- в этих же тонах планирую делать и весь блог.. ну что скажете?
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вот вот- по другому я это назвать не могу.

мало того, что надо мной висит свадьба, семейная сьёмка, фотографии музыканта- необработанные, а впереди две семейные сьёмки и одна бэбичная- мне нужно полностью обновить свой сайт и блог- так как конкретно задрал старый дизайн и даже не хочется новые работы показывать, так как они "созданы" для моего нового дизайна, который пока только у меня в голове!!!!! Ко всему этому можно добавить моё желание почитать, повалятся возле бассейна, сходить в спортзал и согнать мои лишние 10 паундов которые набежали так, как маленькое стадо кабанчиков ниоткуда....плюс мне ужасно хочется ТУСИТЬ, познакомилась с мальчиками из Пятигорска- почти земляки, они такие молоденькие, такие интересные, из России только недавно приехали, рассказывают мне о том, как там сейчас живётся... ну вобощем- хочу пати! :))) И тут же при мысли об этом меня начинает жалить чувство ....guilt......как это по русски то сказать? ну вобощем я чувствую себя виноватой, что мало времени провожу с ребёнком.... Где найти силы, энергию на всё????

раз кавбой- два cowGirl
на свадьбе в прошлую субботу сняла подруга- Света
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Pictures from recent photoshoot... I was going to have a PRO photoshoot for my blog done today but I was too lazy and did not feel like posing.. so here- what we've done when we were just having fun yesterday. My hair is not flat as it is supposed to be, it was so humid... It looks almost like a wig.. :))) Hopefully better pictures are coming soon...


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Gabby is with her daddy in Florida- since last Friday. I miss her. Today is my day off and I've done pretty much- nothing. Was reading books, looking at some other people's pictures but that's pretty much it.
And I've got shit loads to do!

I am super busy.. Got my hair cut in a new way- so cool I love it.. few pics- not the best quality- done on my laptop LOL.. last night went out again- caused major heart attacks in the restaurant and a club- guys were just STARING at me, mo short shorts and long legs in 6 inch heels.. LOL.. I LOVE IT!!!!
But again- i want to love, and to be loved.... Falling in love is always bad.. I want it anyway.. :))))
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....it took me freaking 45 minutes to put this bookcase together but it is FINALLY done and it looks oh so beautiful in my empty living room...at least it keeps company for my leather couch now!!! I moved all the books from my bedroom floor to the shelves of my newly bought bookcase and it looks stunning! Add two elephants and candles I bought at World Market- the only thing missing- orange rug and me reading a book on that inviting couch! :)) Pictures are coming soon...

I told my boss (boss) I am very bored at work and need something more exciting to be working on, a project... Let's see what she will come up with....

Since last Saturday we were having storm after storm and tornado warnings- even now as I type this- tornado siren is going off the hook!!!! This time of year they say... Man... Living on a third floor and not having TV doesn't help.... Apartments just up the block from me lost their roofs on Monday!!!! :(((