Guys, all your private messages, all your kind words, your support, your love and personal attention to my problems mean SO MUCH to me- it is overwhelming!!!!

To all girls around the world:
HAPPY WOMEN's DAY!!!!
It is supposed to be international holiday, you know, they even have the web site for it
http://www.internationalwomensday.com/

so let's bring it on-

tell me what's your plans for tomorrow/today????


We got snow storm, so probably nothing exciting is going to happen with me..

нам назначили специальное расписание, по которому малая проводит время с папой, оно стандартное по нашему округу: каждые вторые выходные с 6 вечера пятницы до 6ти вечера воскресения, и каждую среду с 5.30 до 8.30 вечера.

прошлые выходные Гэбзик была у папы, в среду тоже, в эти выходные ( около 7ми вечера) мой телефон просто разрывается от звонков с домашнего телефона Сашиных родителей- с 3го раза беру трубку:
-Gde ребёнок?, недовольный голос моей свекрови
-Как где? вот она тут сидит, а что?
-А почему ты её к нам не привела, сегодня пятница?
-так она у вас в прошлые выходные была.
-Нет, дорогая моя, она у нас каждые выходные три дня должна быть.
-вы что-то путаете...( я всё ещё стараюсь быть вежливой, на заднем фоне уже слышу Сашу и его папу, как они усмехаются и кричат- нет, значит нет, сама напросилась)
-нет, мы ничего не путаем, каждую неделю ребёнок должен быть у нас три дня. У тебя будут большие неприятности, Лика.
и бросила трубку....

ха ха ха.

специально пошла, посмотрела документы, всё точно и правильно. Конечно если weekends: Alternate weekends beginning Friday at 6:00 p.m. and
ending Sunday at 6:00 p.m. означает КАЖДЫЕ выходные, то я вообще в английском языке ни бум бум!


короче я ужасно рада, что я с этой семейкой развяжусь наконец-таки!!

it's gonna be boring in here for a while.. ;)

IT HAS BEGUN!!!!!
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MASLYANITSA IS an old Russian Holiday, also known as BUTTER WEEK or Pancake Week. It is celebration of welcoming Spring and "killing" winter { by burning a doll! ;) } and happens right before Lent. This tradition of welcoming spring and killing winter has been around for over one thousand years, and since the introduction of Christianity in the tenth century, the government has tried to suppress Maslennitsa and other similar celebrations so that it fits into a Christian society. Pancake week is divided into three parts, i.e. meeting of Maslyanitsa on Monday, the high point of the celebration, on Thursday, and the last day, the good-bye day, which comes on Sunday morning.The traditional dish for "Maslennitsa" are big round hot pan-cakes, with butter ( Butter = Maslo in Russian, that's where the name of the feast comes from.) Pancakes symbolize the sun. The more butter (or honey, cavier, other delicious things) which was put on the pancake, the hotter the sun was expected to be in the coming summer. Nowadays it is celebrated in the end of February as a merry festival with dances, songs, national costumes, attractions for children, hot tea and pancakes served outdoors."


Maslennitsa is much like Mardi Gras in other regions of the world :the day before the beginning of Lent is called Mardi Gras (Fat Tuesday) or Carnival. For Christians, Lent is the forty days that Jesus spent in the desert without anything to eat or drink. Lent ends on Easter Sunday.

Carnival is celebrated in February. The most famous carnivals are the ones in New Orleans in Louisiana, Viareggio in Italy and also, the most crazy of all, the one in Rio de Janeiro.

HOW DID IT START?

At the origin of the Carnival there were many old habits from France. For example, the French took a fat cow around the roads of Paris to tell people not to eat meat during Lent. The word "carnival" means in Latin "to take away eating meat". Some people believe the idea for carnival started even earlier with the ancient festivals of the Romans. Many years after it started in Europe carnival spread to America and many other countries.
Official Mardi Gras' website

мама напрягается, что я на компьютере, вместо того, что бы мыть посуду....
мдаааа.докатились чеСС слово! :)))
ушла.

напишу это по русски, что бы могли девчёнки нормально прочесть и оставить своё мнение.

ну все уже в курсе нашего с Сашей развода и разборок. А вот как поступить с его семьёй? С ними тоже развод? Ну естественно, с его мамашкой я и рада ручки развязать, но вот как быть с женой его брата? Ведь мы всегда так тесно общались: много было и хорошего и "плохого" ( непонимание, какие то обиды и небольшие несерьёзные стычки, как в принципе у всех). Сейчас она мне говорит, что она ни на чьей стороне. От НИХ она слышать ничего не хочет, но у меня спрашивает, какие планы на будущее и так далее. То есть я на сто процентов уверена, она абсолютно в курсе ВСЕГО, что происходит на том фронте ( от мужа, своей мамы, которая общается с Сашиной мамой, ну или от Риты самой в конце конов {сашина мама} ) и про меня она тоже всё хочет знать. А я почему то не могу себя от неё отделить, отрезать наши отношения. Мама моя из за этого оч переживает, говорит, что об меня вытирают ноги. Что на меня все сейчас косо смотрят- что я уже "не своя в доску", как раньше, я чужой человек, чуть ли не враг, который бросил семью, разбил ячейку , оставил ребёнка без отца и так далее- что это всё моя вина, короче, а не Сашина. И я понимаю что виноваты мы оба, но нет нам вместе жизни, что тут поделать то? Мы слишком разные: я расту и хочу найти себя в чём то, реализовать, а он? ну вообщем о чём это я?

КАК поступить? что делать то???

Просто не звонить и не отвечать на её звонки? ну не могу же я так? это ведь некрасиво как то.

OMG OMG OMG!!!! Can it be more fun????!!!!
Dont you people just LOVE this week???????????? I've got fridge stocked with caviar and "piles" of Russian style pancakes! Oh yeah baby!
And by the way, just found out today, I was baptized as Elena, so cewl! ;)

what do you do when you feel sad and tired and just not quite yourself????
That's right- you treat yourself to something nice: like a day with your mom at the mall.. ;)
Picturezzzzzz
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вчера устроила мамсу прогулку! пошли с ней в кино, потом в боулинг, а перед этим в ресторан покушать, а малая у нас на этих выходных с папой и другой бабушкой...
Fools Gold is very relaxing movie.

OMG my body is on fire!!!!! I had to take advil last night to go to sleep and this morning I feel like shi-i-it!!!!! I dunno how im gonna work..it freaking hurts...

красота!

I think every day { well OK almost every day} me and Elena Ollick are havin virtual date on our blogs! LOL... :) what do you think, sweetie??? Is this true?

я же совсем забыла- мне ведь за часы мои долбанутые A вляпили, и за тест по иллюстратору самую высокую оценку-100%- я одна в классе оказалась такая умная разуманя девочка... вот. не зря, бля, мучалась! :)))

right before I saw some pictures on Eelena's blog I was about to write a freaking depressing post about my fucked up life. well it i not actually that bad. everything is going great. I am moving in the right direction and all, but my feelings are all screwed up.
but then I saw those pictures and was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... I am so freakin silly- IT IS ALL GOOD!!! I live for moments like those on the picture! :)))
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so, my news.

It is official now- we filed for divorce! Those guys who've dreamed to go out with me- you can cross your fingers- withing 6-8 months you'll be able to show me what you've got! ;)

I am about 90% sure I'll get to stay in the house until it gets sold and Sasha is paying for it.

I am 100% sure I won't get my status screwed up ( he filed for divorce, not me, baby together and other god stuff)

So yeah baby, yeah! :)))

Right now he got some {supervised} parenting time until the divorce court where I'll fight for full custody. Knowing his parents and him too well- he won't need Gabby fr too long anyway. He got his parenting time- every other week he'll have her. I am not sure how we're going to survive this abuse with my mom, but we will some how... I was even thinking bout flying to FL { to you know who} for a weekend with my mom, if that's OK with { you know who} but not sure bout money- will have to check the cost of tickets, but I thought it'd be so freakin cool!



what else what else...

OH my feelings...

since this is the ONLY place right now wheer I can spill what's on my mind- here we have it people:

i can't get J* out of my head. It is not permanent I know, all I need is some time, but still, right now I can not even look at him, it hurts, that he is married and we met too late in life and there is absolutely nothing between us but sympathy { even though every time I see him all I can think about it..well you know what} and the other freakin thing is that I feel he does too { talking bout that other thing}....


k whatever. i ll get over him pretty soon.

here is picture for you guys...
for those who doesn't read stupid posts! ;)
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Marion Cotillard
WOW
I really really like her and so glad she won it!!! Now I am dying to see this movie.. :)))
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I absolutely fell in love with them.. :)))
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

My home work for this week:
create a clock from an object ( cat, pop can, gun, doll, whatever)
draw 6 thumbnails on a paper with the ideas
pick one and draw larger image
draw this image in illustrator
using different colors and tones create 3d model of this clock....

I've been trying all week to come up with the ideas, ok, I got some, then I tried all evening yesterday and all day today to draw it in Illustrator and I AM SO FREAKING FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW!!!!! I think I could break something....

I CAN'T DO ID!!!! I HATE ILLUSTRATOR! HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OK, SO LAST NIGHT I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS...

on Monday I am going to sign my soul away! LOL I am going to sign all the paperwork for loans for my school- it is about 40 grands. WOW. HUGE! NOW. I am going to be pursuing "COMMUNICATION DESIGN {web option}" degree, so after graduation and getting my Bachelor's I'll be able to work as an art director, designer, etc. BUT! There is one little problem. I want to work as a photographer. There are so many different courses, workshops and certification programs available THAT I WANT TO TAKE NOW!!!! And the cost is FAR below 40 grands, plus I could spend some money on upgrading my equipment. I want to be ON LOCATION photographer with more contemporary approach. I want to really learn this craft, I always thought that great pictures depend on which camera you use, well, I've learned that to be false. PLUS photography only gets better with practice, not reading some books or taking some courses. Well OK some basic theory is GREAT, but I need to spend more time exposing...

Well, my mom freaks out. She doesn't think that photography is serious enough career. She thinks the only reason I am going this route now is because I run into some difficulties at school { remember my post bout hating Illustrator} and absolutely against this whole idea of switching degree to the ART SCIENCE major or something more relative to the photography.

I know I will do photography no matter what, but I wonder about your thoughts on this guys { especially SOME OF YOU...LOL...} It's just seem like a waste of my time and money- I could spend it on something that I really love and be successful instead I'll be working part time, going to school getting the degree that I am not sure I'll even use { of course it will look great on ABOUT me page, but...} not spending enough time with Gabby..oh well, I am just so lost in my thoughts... again I wish I just could look into my future and see what will happen if I'll tak different turns...

Well, at least one thing is for sure- I don't have that huge NO in my life anymore { you know who I'm talking about} so I am going to take workshops and go on trips and have fun just as planned- school or no school! ;)))

I aM going to GROW personally!

And..if you guys have not yet discovered http://ilovephotography.com/forums/ YOU REALLY NEED to check it out!!!!

It is just amazing how productive I can be during the crisis time.. :)
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