here it is... both of us

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zakat na Issyk-Kule... ne sovsem ozero... prosto mi bili v gorax... v smilse uzhe domoi exali... po doroge sdelano... krasyavo...
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mlya stoka domashki zadali po istorii... zaebis.....
ms.arteaga obnaglela....
ot ruki narisovat kartu afriki... mozht vam eshe vse strany nazvat po pamyati???
mlyat'.. lana... menya tut ne bilo....
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В колонках играет - kakaya to tupaya popsa

ya shas v shkole... u nas tam vse kakoi to test pishut po matematike, a mne ego ne nado pisat'... kak vsegda bezdelnichayu...
wahahhaah...
ex.. vot sizhu i dumayu.... pochemu nekotorim vezet a nekotorim net? pochemu u nekotorix v usa experience super, a nekotorie - prosto tishina?
pochemu ya bila tak uverena chto ya budu takoi uspeshnoi exchange student, a u menya vse ne tak kak ya dumala? pochemu?
pochemu u menya tak mnogo celei? pochemu ya ne privikla proigrivat? ved togda bilo b legche? pochemu ya veeeechno sizhu v nete??? pochemu ya? pochemu?
pochemu u menya inogda takoe dvoistvennoe nastroenie??? pochemu grustno i veselo odnovremenno? pochemu?
pochemy, mlyat, ya ne mogu podarit etu lubov, kotoraya TAK menya napolnyaet, komu nibud? Pochemu ryadom nikogo net? pochemu pustota v dushe? pochemu?
pochemu tak mnogo fake relations? pochemu ya ne mogu naiti sebe druzei v amerike? pochemu oni takie? pochemu?
pochemu ya tak skuchayu po domu, po rodnomu Kyrgyzstanu, ved ya dazhe znayu, chto tut luchshe? pochemu nekotorie NE skuchayut po KG? pochemu?
pochemu mi vse takie raznie?
POCHEMU???????????

В колонках играет - Tegaman (Y. Usmanova)
Настроение сейчас - mmmmmmmm

slushaite moi poslednie news: eta anedelya bila koshmarnoi!!! ya so vsemi pererugalas, naorala na vsex i vsya, i koroche xodila nadutaya i obizhennaya i prosto ya yasno davala im ponyat, chto ne lublu eti fake (ne znayu, kak skazat na russkom pravilno... nu tipa, lzhivie, nerealnie) otnoshenia s nimi... vooooott....
nadeyus, chto sleduyushaya nedelya budet ne takoi kak eta.
da, kstati, vchera menya moi uchitel po angliskomu dovel, uzhas! slushaite: ya nedavno c neta skachala Medlyak (Mr. Credo) i koroche, sizhu v shkole s vostorgom rasskazivayu
Angeline ob etom i ona poprosila poslushat poka peremena. nu ya
konechno zhe ei dala. potom zvenit zvonok: mne angelina daet obratno
CD, i v etot moment etot kozel Mr. Jacobs zabiraet eto u menya govorya, chto
tipa ya slushala ego!!! ya podumala: "a nu ladno, potom zaberu posle uroka"
guess what? ni xrena! podxozhu ya k nemu posle uroka, govoryu: "can I have my CD
back?" a on:"no"
ya:"why not?" i tut on TAKOE nachal!!!! tupica! koroche slushaite: on nachal vinit
menya v takix veshax, ujas! govorit: "ya tak ustal, chto angelina vse vremya
zazhimaetsya s jamesom, chto sintia, susana i egdar vse vremya talk in spanish,
chto klass menya ne slushaet" i koroche drugoi fucking shet v takom je duxe. ya tam
vAAShe obaldela i asked him: "a pochemu vi mne vse v vinu stavite? ya otvechayu tolko za sebya. s kem angelina zajimaetsya i kogda - ee problemi. reshenie na kakom razgovarivat yazike - kazhdogo lichnoe delo. ya ne otvetstvenna za drugix. Ya polagayu vi ponimaete chto CD - eto moya sobstvennost i xochu verit chto vi mne ego vernete SEICHAS ZHE." on upersya: "net i vse" koroche gad takoi... nu ya emu eshe tam nagovorila konechno, vse vezhlivo, no zhestko. dazhe ne to chto
iz-za CD rasstroilas a to chto on reshil na mne sorvatsya i za vsex srazy
naorat. mlyat! koroche, ochen vchera bila zlaya i eshe bolee stervoznaya chem vsedga...
nu lana, zakonchu na xoorshei note: zavtra subbota!!! znachit posplyu do 2 dnya, potom pop'yu kofe u opyat poidy spat!!! a potom vozmu bolshoe vedro morozhenogo, syadu na divane i budu filmi smotret! vigonu vsex zverei iz komnati i budu odnaaaaaaaa!!!! kaif!!!
lana... vot fotki... s Nataxinoi Dnuxi... zdorovo pobaldeli konechno!!!! eto uzhe utro/////////////
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В колонках играет - Lola, Lola
Настроение сейчас - xmm.. prekrasnoeee!!!

koroche, u menya shas eksameni, pisat nekogda!
stuchat po klave - trudno!!!'poka!
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память
...Эти дни - дни памяти по погибшим, по тысячам погибших людей в Азии. Зажигаются свечи, и их пламя плачет по невинно канувшим в бездну смерти душам...И - прежде всего - по младенцам.Чем МЫ можем помочь сейчас? Уже ничем. Только почтить их память.
Если вам небезразличны эти трагические события, скопируйте это сообщение себе в дневник.

В колонках играет - Russkoe Radio
Настроение сейчас - poidet

Slushaite, che ya shas slushayu!!! RUSSKOE RADIO!!! uzhe 5 mesyacev ego ne slishala!!! trubbeeenn!!!
Da-a-a-a.. rovno 5 mesyacev nazad ya uexala s rodnogo KGstana... mdyayaaaa.....
Uzhe ostalos 4 mesyaca! ypppa!!! Tak xochu domoi!!! Amerika ne to chto b nadoela, prosto nadoelo eto bezumnoe odinochestvo, bez blizkix... koroche DOM, MILIY DOM. =)
Da, kstati, mne devchonki zvonili togda noch'uy.. klassno poboltali! A vchera Elvirchik zvonila!!! v 11 nochi, mi do 12.30 boltali...

eex... che b nakalyakat'??? urokov kucha, na sleduyushei nedele - eksameni.... mliiin!
xochu na Vipusknoi poskorei!!! UZhe ne terpitsya.. Takoe krasivoe plat'e, vse kak nado.. aaxxx..... vse budet xorosho....

В колонках играет - Dilnaz Axmadieva
Настроение сейчас - strannoe......

Seichas sizhu i odolevayut menya strannie misli.... Mozhet eto iz za togo chto u menya shas mesyachnie??? Da net, ya vsegda takaya bila...
Ladno, poidu dalshe dumat..... o strannostyax....
xm............

В колонках играет - Lola, Lola (Otabek Madrahimov)
Настроение сейчас - chuvstvuyu sebya vrode b neploxo, no ne blestyashe...

tak voot... s chego b nachat??? sednya vot venulas s vecherinki Nataxinoi.. super konechno posideli , nechego skazat! kuucha narodu, podarki, igra vopros-otvet.. xa, mne vopros popalsya: "kakoi tvoi lubimiy nomer v Kamasutre?"
Nu ya i lyapnula: "11". tak poxer, prosto skazala i vse... a tak ya znayu tolko 69 =). Koroche potom oni poshli k karty igrat, a mi tancevali... Potom TROYU smotreli... superskiy film... Bradd Pitt - krasavchik!!! Kakoe u nego tam telo!!! uuuu!!!! Orlando Bloom - tozhe kak vsegda, lapochka!!!
Koroche eto bilo gde-to uzhe chasika 2-3 nochi.. nu possmoreli mi etot film, ya poplakala chut-chut, kogda Bradda tipa ubili... ax! =) potom nashim francuzam est' zaxotelos' - oni poshli makarony s syrom delat'. v 4 utra... mdaaa!!! ya poshla v tualet, potom poshla nazhralas orexov, do six por smotret na nix ne mogu, pri vsei moei lubvi k nim... Da, kstati, vernulas - smotryu - che-t malo nas stalo, okazca Carlos, Delphine, i drugie - poshli kurit'... vot vezuchie, mlya...
Potom mi eshe odin film posmotreli, koroche sideli do 6.30 utra. Ya kogda zasipala pryam na polu ya slishala golos Nataxinogo host-papi - on prosnulsya =)
Koroche oni vstavali - mi uxodili tolko spat'.. potom Juan utrom menya razbudil, suka! Shelkal kameroi ya ot vspishki prosnulas'... koroche poluchilos 3 chasa spala.... sha nikakaya!!! vrode spat xochu poiti - no nado snachala komnatu ubrat', samoi nadoelo v takom srachnike sidet'... shas uberus, lyagu na krovat i budu dumat', dumat'..... eto tak priyatno, esli ne perebarshivat'!!! vkluchu muziku, i budu dumat'... na uroki sednya zab'yu - zaebali uzhe, ne xochu uchitsya, v smisle, uchitsya eto eshe nichego, no domashka - skuchnei nichego ne mozhet byt'... vsegda udivlyalas', kakoi idiot ee pridumal???
ladno, vse vecherkom dopishu, esli do kompa dokovilyayu... vooooottt...

В колонках играет - Crazy in Love, Beyonce
Настроение сейчас - nastroenie??? kakoe?

Sednya k Nataxe na Dnyuxu idu... Takoe nastroenie u menya strannoe. Eta bol' ot togo, chto proigrala uzhe chut'chut' poutixla, no kakoi-to komok.. dazhe ne v gorle, a gde-to v zheludke etot komok... v legkix... stranno...
slushayu lubimie pesni... tak odinoko... xochu prizhatsya k komu-nibud ochen blizkomu cheloveku, obnyat'.. i prosto stoyat tak... dolgo-dolgo... poka nogi ne zatekut... xochu... sest' s kem-nibud ochen blizkim, vipit piva, ili vina... sovsem nemnogo... i prosto razgovarivat', razgovarivat', razgovarivat'....
odinoko..... do uzhasa odinoko... dushe odinoko..... serdcu.... bol'no... xochetsya utknutsya v podushku i revet'.... revet'....
kto ostalsya u menya v Bishkeke??? kto pomnit menya i zvonit??? Vitalik. Moi luchshiy drug... a gde KAGAD? oni ne pishut, ne zvonyat.. dazhe na Dnyuxu ne pozvonili.. skazali, chto 3 yanvarya pozvonyat... xrenushki!!! nikto ne zvonil... 30 somov ne bilo u troix devchonok..... ne xochu ob etom dumat', no vse taki zakradivayutsya podozrenia naschet nashei druzhbi. ya znayu eto glupo tak sudit', mne Aika ochen chasto pishet, no ona ne moya luchshaya podruga, dazhe ne smotrya na to chto ona menya pomnit vsegda. Mozhet u nix i vpravdu net vremeni? mlya, ya vsegda pitayus naiti opravdanie vsem... kakaya eto druzhba???... ne znayu.... NE ZNAYU..... vse tak neponyatno.... A Vitalik uzhe skolko raz zvonil! pust' na 5 minut, pust noch'yu kogda vse spyat... on vse zhe menya pomnit...
Ya ne govoryu o FLEXax, nam legche obshatsya, vse taki v odnoi strane vremenno... S Elvirkoi kazhdiy den' v chate sidim... Ona klassnaya devchonka... Mi s nei voobshe luchshimi podrugami stali...

ya opyat bezumno soskuchilas po Bishkeku... po nashim ulicam, Chui-prospektu, Plaze, Dzerzhinke, Vostoku-5, nashemu dvoru.... po moei komnate s vidom na 66 shkolu i TEC, po komnate gde vsegda igraet radio... ili mafon... koroche music... Solnce zalivaet komnatu... Kto-to krichit na ulice, veselitsya... Slishitsya shum mashin.... Gorod zhdet...

A chto tut? Nado kak nibud svalit v centr goroda na celiy den' s Nataxoi i drugimi nashimi.... celiy den' brodit po gorodu, est morozhenoe na xodu, xodit po magazinam... blagodat'.....

Da, kstati, ya pisala, chto uznala dati ot'ezda? 26 maya i 30 iyuny.... OXRENELI.... mne nado bit' v Bishe ne pozzhe 20. u menya Posledniy Zvonok, kotoriy ya zhdala s 1 klassa! koroche ya bila vozmushena do glubini dushi i napisala pismo v ACCELS. vot takogo soderzhania:

"To Whom It May Concern,

We, the exchange students from Kyrgyzstan, want to thank you for this opportunity to participate in FLEX program.
FLEX helps us to meet new people and new culture, to realize ourselves as Individuals, to understand ourselves and appreciate others. And, of course, it's a great pleasure to tell Americans about Kyrgyzstan, and even more, when Americans ARE interest in culture, traditions, history of our Motherland.
All this is really awesome but we have to think about future, too. Some of us will graduate this year from school. However, to graduate we have to pass exams, which will begin in June. Also, we'll have the National Testing, which usually takes place on May, 25-27th.
Leaving on May, 26th is kind of too late for us, because it means that we'll arrive to Kyrgyzstan on May 28th, so we won't be able to prepare for exams and we'll be late (or miss) for the National Testing.
If you could change the date May, 26th for a week earlier on 18th or 19th that would be perfect or us, because we would have almost 10 days on preparation for our exams and we'd be on time for the National Testing. Also, we need to adapt for time zones.
We request to change dates on May, 18-19th. Please, do it for us!
We hope for your understanding.
Thanks in advance.
Happy Holidays!"

daaa.... vot nabrala sebe storonnikov 11 chelovek i napisala eto pismo... vezhlivo, no nastoichivo... oni kak-to tumanno otvetili:
"Dear all,

Thank you for your recent email. I have explained the situation to your
placement organizations and advised them how to address your concerns.
You should be hearing from the soon. If you have any other questions,
please do not hesitate to contact your placement organization.

Sincerely,"

vot mlya, xren ponyat, izmenyat oni nam dati ili net? xotelos' bi... xochu v Ilim... ladno, poidu ya... veshi sobirat... po vsei komnate razbrosani, s komnate chert nogu slomit... neryaxa stala strashnaya.... nu da ladno, who cares?
Adios.....
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Настроение сейчас - spat xochu

sednya ne bilo nichego interesnogo... zavtra u Nataxi dnuxa.. bum gulyat.. bez vina... mlin.... zato nas budet mnogo i s nochevkoi.. ladno, poidu spat u menya uzhe 1,14 nochi.....

"ну..."

Ты- сплошная изюминка...=)
В тебе есть всё, 4то может понравится! У тебя есть стиль, вкус, кокетство, ты нравишься маль4икам, вобщем так держать, НО больше уверенности, но не зазнавайся=)


Пройти тест "насколько ты неординарна? необыкновенна? обворожительна? стильна? крута? кто ты?"

В колонках играет - Hotel
Настроение сейчас - mmmmmmmm.....

da, kstati, spasibo VSEM, kto prislal mne otkrytki na Dnyuxu i NG!!!
Sama ya bila v gorax, civilicaii - netu, sami znaete...
No BILO OCHEN PRIYATNO!!!!!!!!!

В колонках играет - Medlyak............
Настроение сейчас - zaebis'!!! literally!

vot mlyaaa... kogda stoka xoroshego bilo - ne dumala dazhe syuda zaxodit, a shas vot opyat xrenovo - i poperla....
Koroche, seichas smotryu na zhizn' glazami ranenogo begemota...xrenovo vse.... Menya ne vibrali dlya uchastiya v etoi ebanoi konferencii... i che sprashivaetsya, staralas-begala po uchitelya, chtob rekomendaciyu napisali, sama tut esse pisala... koroche kuuuchu nervov - zrya... ne vibrali.,.. urodi gadskie.....
Potom, sednya pomimo etogo grebannogo pisma, prishlo eshe odno. ot banka... okazca, u menya na schetu bila summa slishkom malenkaya i eti suki kazhdyi den' nabavlyali 5 baksov... teper u menya na schetu $-81.. MINUS VOSEMDESYAT ODIN BAKS..... zaebis na meste, stoya.....
tak, che eshe ploxogo???
da, vot vchera prikol sluchilsya : "Poshla ya utrom v shkolu, golova chut-chut bolit, kak s poxmel'ya :). Nu i pod predlogom reshila poiti k nurse vmesto fotografii. Zaxozhu, govoryu: "tak-to, tak-to, golova bolit, deneg netu, ya sama ne mestnaya :)". Ona mne chai sdelala. Ya ego p''yu... A golova bolit! Ya u nee proshu tabletku aspirina, a v CA okazca ne razreshayut davat medikamenty v shkolax! uzhass!!! Ona (nurse) pozvonila moemu xoct-pape i skazala, chto "Dilya boleet. Privezite ei aspirin!"
Moi xoct, bednyi primchalsya, s etim grebannim aspirinom. I koroche, ya doma sidela... on ispugalsya, chto vdrug mne xuzhe stanet i domoi zabral.... Mlin.... " vot takaya story......
da, kstati, 25 noch'yu v 2 chasa zvonyu Vitaliku s Dnyuxoi pozdravit. U nix-to uzhe 3 chasa dnya, i mne xotelos' iz trezvimi zastat'... Zvonyu domoi: ego netu. zvonyu Marishe: ego netu. Zvonyu umaru: EGO NETU!!! vse govoryat 6 minut nazad ushel... da, kstati umar - suka polnaya, eban. ya u nego sprashivayu: "Vitalik s toboi? bla-bla-bla" i v konce "Slish, ya tebe na mobilu pozvonyu chasikov v 7 po vashemu vremeni ok?" a eta suka govorit: "vse, Go home, Yankee"... yyyyyyyy, suuuuuuuukaaa!!! kak ya ego nenavizhu!!! vernus' - pervim delom emu pisdi dam! vtorim delom - rot otorvu s ego gryaznim yazikom. tret'e - opushu nizhe plintusa!
A kama opyat nachal svoe.. navernoe, on vse taki reshil menya zasosat' vo chto bi to ni stalo... samoe uzhasnoe, chto ya prakticheski ne protiv... ladno, vernus' - posmotrim....
mlya!!! lubvi ne xvataet... voobshe - pustota... nikogo.. tishina.....
voobshe - nikto ne interesen... a nado bi... a to uzhe xot' v xalate v shkolu xodi... nadeyus, do etogo delo ne doidet...
ladno, poidu topit svoyu grust'-pechal' v bokale (ux kak xochetsya napisat vina!) gazirovannogo yablochnogo soka... mlin

mne ploxo, mne ploxo, mne ploxo, mne ploxo, mne ploxo....
mne prosto uzhasno ploxo..... Gospodi, pochemu mne tak ploxo? pochemu mne tak xrenovo? Oi, podozhdi, Gospodi, ya znayu. Iz za togo chto ya nechayanno prochla pismo moei xostki moemu xostu... Gde govoritsya, chto esli ya tak xochu otmechat svoe DR tut, v gorode s druz'yami, to luchshe mne ostatsya s Janine... a oni t.e. uedut katatsya na lizhax. Razumeetsya, ya ostanus', ya ne xochu vstrechat 17 God moei zhizni gde to v gorax, neponyatno gde.... mne nuzhna kompania, mnogo druzei chtob bylo... a Janine, samoe uzhasnoe, sobiraetsya na Rozhdestvo exat' k svoim roditelyam, vo Fresno. t.e. mne ne s kem ostatsya, actually. Net, nu v samom dele, ne mogu zhe ya s Natashinymi xostami zhit' 2 nedeli.... Xotya ya s nei uzhe govorila, zhalovalas, koroche, a ona skazala tipa, eto budet normalno, skorei vsego oni razreshat. No k nim priezhaet Dilya (ix former exchange student), oni veroyatno, budut xodit' kuda-nibud' vmeste.... Da u nix svoix del kucha, im tolko menya ne xvatalo...
Ex, tolko nachinayu po polnoi osoznovat', chto ya tut nikomu HAXPEH ne nuzhna...
vot, blya, a... che delat'? exat' s nimi ili ostatsya? 100 pudov - ostatsya... YA NE XOCHU EXAT' V ETI EBANNIE GORY I KATATSYA NA ETIX EBANYX LIZHAX!
ya voobshe xochu na Novyi God domoi...
ex, chert..... vot shas zhdu Maminogo zvonka... poskorei by pozvonili oni....
Kak ya soskuchilas po nim!!! Ya vooshbe uzhe s sentyabrya ne plakala, a segodnya opyat' kogda s Natkoi govorila, razrevelas'.... trruba...
da i kstati, ya v chetverg poluchila pismo ot FLEX s datami ot'ezda... samoe rannyaya - eto 26 maya..... net, eto 26... koshmar, ya dumala 15 smogu otsyuda smyt'sya nafig, a oni govoryat 26.. koroche ya reshila pisat pismo v ACCELS s pros'boi, net, trebovaniem izmenit nam datu. Ne znayu, poluchitsya ili net, no popytat'sya vse zhe stoit... Kak zhe strashno sidet' vot takoi vot bespomoshnoi...
Koroche...... vse tak slozhno i zaputano..... i eto zhizn??? ili sushestvovanie?
ni to, ni drugoe.. eto XUINYA nazivaetsya!!!
who cares about students, who came to America for studying? Yeah, I know a lot of people.... But they don't care about our feelings... Nobody cares, except our Friends and Family....

nu konechno, ya vooooobsheee!!! uge pochti 2 nedeli ne zaglyadivala!!!      koroche, sednya zvonila Bratu rodnomu, lubimomu v Tashkent. tak klassno poboltali!! i Vitalke zvonila  a ego doma ne bilo... zato s Olgoi Ivanovnoi pogovorila... Xoroshaya ona zhenshina!

a voobshe eto polnoe zapadlo: ya sednya zabolela tipa, i v shkolu  i ne poshla,a potom vspomnila chto v shkole sednya dance!!! fuck! koroche i diskoteku propustila...

zavtra idu na zavtrak s Santa Clausom!!!  xaxaaaxxxxaaa!!! A potom poedu k zemlyachke v gosti!!! ochen zhdu ne dozhdus'!!!!!