В колонках играет - DJ Piligrim
Настроение сейчас - ex.. kakoe nastorenie??? vesna prishla... xochu domoi...
tak.. shas vot chemodan budu sobirat... na Long Beach...
pizdec, u menya ostalos 25 baksov!!!!!!!!!!! uzhas!!!!!!! navernoe pridetsya u Johna zanimat, a che delat? a potom natasha otdast ili stipendiyu poluchu i otdam.....
mlyaaaaaaaa..... nenavizhu dengi zanimat...... nu lana.........
shas sizhu v kabinete u sya doma, dver otkrila, teplo.... vesna prishla...... zapaxi takie - obaldet... ryadom kazhetsya akaciya zvetet..... aaxx.... rrrromantika!!! Bishkek - toka tam mozhet byt' luchshe chem shas!!!!!!!!!!!
da kstati......................
ona xernya sluchaetsya so mmnoi.... nazivaetsya VESNA PRISHLA... kogda mimo proxodit kto libo chut pokrasivei popugaya, i protivopolozhnogo pola, i pri etom eshe grit: "Hi, Dilya. How r u?" u menya taakk: "aaaaahh.... good... I am good.. how r u?"
mliiiiinn.... VESNA PRISHLA..... prishla ona vse taki... opyat kak to vnezapno..... chuvstvuyu eto oshushenie v zheludke ili eto zhivot... whatever.... koroche.. kak budto shas vzorvus'... mlyaaaaaaaaaa.....
xochu domoi... tam est xot' pered kem vipendrivatsya, a tut .... LOL :
taaaak.... elya grila chto ostalos 65 dnei.... aga... tochno....
vot shas poedu na conferenciyu, xot' vernus na 3 dnya v svoyu tarelku.... a potom opyat suda....
pomnyu vchera menya Katya chut ne zadushila.... vse potomu chto Carlos skazal :"you r so cool, Dilya"mnliiinn!! da mne tak po 100 raz na dnyu i millionu raz v god govoryat!!! vse prichem... nezavicimo ot vozrasta, pola, socialnogo polozhenia i t.d.
vot'... bilo nepriyatno chut chut.... takoe chuvstvo bilo chto ona dumaet chto ya tam ego otbit xochu.. menga che delat nechego??? wai, Xuda....
oi, kak I ustala ot etogo... nenavizhu podozrenia, upreki.... za***li etim vse.... "gde ti bila? che delala?" POSHLI VSE NA XER! vot doma tak u menya ne sprosyat.... doma mne vse doveryayut... a tut eshe edak exidno tipo, odna priexala, sam sebe xozyaika, da?
nu da... ya sama sebe xozyaika i vsegda eyu bila.... che xochu to delayu.... v predelax razumnogo....
esli mne kto to ne nravitsya, ya ne budu tam licemerit... i skazhu srazu... net, ya budu normalno nim obshatsya, no prosto yasno dam ponyat, kakie "feelings" k nemu/nei ispitivayu....
A v USe eto ne ponimauyt.... fake relations.... fake friends.... fake love..... shit! vse fake... nu pochti,,, calories u nix real..... da net, ya k Ameram normalno otnoshus, ponimayu chto eto ix cultura, mentalitet.. prosto oni menya inogda vyrubayut na meste...goddamn you, guys!....
"I am so tired of being here"..... chieldish fears...shas vspomnila kak K. menya sprosil, vzroslaya li ya..... ya emu eshe togda skazala cht tipo don't feel myself vzrosloi.... a potom nachala dumat o vsex veshax,.... kotorie are happening around me... myself... and I.... che to tak stranno stalo.... ya chuvstvuyu sebya kak to..... ne znayu kak opisat.... vrode b vzroslaya uzhe... odna v ameriku uexala, ne malenkaya.... i cherez stoka voobshe proshla....
vrode b zakalili... ne znayu kak....
predavali zhestoko ne raz.... i ne dva.... osobenno v Ilime eto bilo... a aprele.... tak bol'no bylo.... niche, vizhila, kuda denus' nafig....... vot tak teper i budet.... "kuda ya denus'" dep jurvatmen.....
on the other hand.... zhuuuuutko ne mogu pereborot etu e*****uyu homesickness.... nu ne mogu ya etogo sdelat, xot' ubei... prosto terpelivo zhdu..... i zhdu.... i zhdu......i zhduuuuu...........
mlya.... nadoelo zhdat'...
action..... need action.... whatever action.... just can't freeze... just can't live without movement...
MAZAFAKA..........