i think i am going crazy, i am reading others people profiles
thinking they have more fun and more friends
much more interesting lives in general
i am down again, for no reason :-(
i seriously need lots of money, so i can go on freaking vacation and forget everything and everyone
and as soon as possible, otherwise i will go nuts
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i fucking hate my team, i wish i can beat the crap out of them
idiots

called olga, long time no talk with her
made me all upset
she is all that happy with her bf and i am all that alone with lots of work
sad
i have no personal life :-(
maybe i should get one?
maybe than i will know that " there are two types of orgasms for women"
lol
:-)

i guess there wont be a happy end
i am getting lazing, i dont wanna study
i am scared whats going to happen after this winter
and once again, my anxiety is back , all always , back to square one
i am always worrying before the time :-(
i spend these two days staying at home, doing nothing - sad , i am waisting my life .............................
i am hopping its going to get better
and i am thinking about winter: what should i do? look for a job? go to ukraine? take a vacation? what?
will called, as always
nothing else is going on.....lol :(
i need new ppl , lala lala lala
stupid me

Apex: привет, как дела?
Jen D.: привет, жопа
Jen D.: ... то есть дела - жопа

my coworker took me to his new office in the middle of manhattan on the 51th floor, wow!
what a view! you can see the whole city , so beautiful, lucky bastard!
haha and he wanted me to sit in his master chair with my legs on his desk :-))
haha , he even showed me my office if i accept his offer! no way, you old horny bastard! but i still enjoy ur company
one lady in the office thought that i am a french model for the company, funny
my boss got jealous, and he is a guy
ah, beauty IS a poverful thing!!!!
ever forget, YOU ARE a very beautiful girl :-))))))))))))))))))))))

i cant take it anymore, my crambs are killing me
i throw up, i can't eat, i cant' breath, i get hot flash, than cold flash and its all going in a curcular motion - throw up- cant breatth- hot flash - cold flash - throw up ....
untill i fall asleep and sleep for hours!!!

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and thats how i know my childhood is OVER
my first real HARD work day
It was very very stressful
i had to learn how to do cold calling and its a pain in the ass!!
but thats essentual to business, you have to bring clients to your business
everyone in the office have me some kind of advice on how to do it
it really helped and i felt better knowing that everyone did that before, so now its my turn to do it, and if they could, i certainly can to!!!
i have to make that money! i have to get the job, i have to know how to do it
man
i wish i was a child again
its harsh to make money, even through i am not working with my hands

big weekend is over ;-(
i definatelly had fun w/ irina
we went playing pool, table tennis and than we hanged out at the beach talking about whatever

daniel is not calling :-((

but, hey, its all good,
victor send his pictures, man he changed
well at least someone remembers and thinks about me in ukie
that made me feel better :-)))

so its two :-( and one :-)
but its still good :)
somehow i am feeling happy ) and i think i know the reason!!! more good mp3!

JOKE OF THE WEEK

A very successful lawyer parked his brand new Lexus in front of the office, ready to show it off to his colleagues. As he got out, a truck came along too close to the curb and completely tore off the driver's door.

Fortunately, a cop in a police car was close enough to see the accident and pulled up behind the Lexus, his lights flashing. But, before the cop had a chance to ask any questions, the lawyer started screaming hysterically about how his Lexus, which he had just picked up the day before, was now completely ruined and would never be the same, no matter how the body shop tried to make it new again.

After the lawyer finally wound down from his rant, the cop shook his head in disgust and disbelief. "I can't believe how materialistic you lawyers are," he said. "You are so focused on your possessions that you neglect the most important things in life."

"How can you say such a thing?" asked the lawyer. The cop replied, "Don't you even realize that your left arm is missing? It got ripped off when the truck hit you!!!"

"OH, MY GOD!" screamed the lawyer.

"MY ROLEX!"

darn i have to time for anything
school is killing me, my last semester , fuck , i cant' flank it
ema and her husband think that i am funny, i bet they get together at home and laught at me, black people
my crush pays no attention to me, i have no fun
but the cool part: i sold my babe, and i am in business! i sold for more than i bought, and get to keep the profits!!!
ok, i will have to split it with my dad and mom , (who , by the way, have very little part in it) but act as if i have to share, mom said : call it taxes on sales.........
yeah, right
oh, i met my neighbor today, cute guy, i've never saw him before and he asked me out today, when we met for the first day, haha, what a fast guy, fuck him too
ok , no more cursing! its not like i curse in a real time anyway!

soft, mouth slightly open, move lips slowly, touch your tongue lightly on your partners lips.......

"Furthermore, I like the tightness, the wetness, and simple naivety of a virgin. "

You know you're from NEW YORK CITY when:
1.You say "the city" and expect everyone to know that this means Manhattan.

2.You have never been to the Statue of Liberty or the Empire State Building.

3.You can get into a four-hour argument about how to get from Columbus Circle to Battery Park at 3:30 on the Friday before a long weekend, but can't find Wisconsin on a map.

4.Hookers and the homeless are invisible.

5.The subway makes sense.

6.You believe that being able to swear at people in their own language makes you multi-lingual.

7.You've considered stabbing someone just for saying "The Big Apple".

8.The most frequently used part of your car is the horn.

9.You call an 8' x 10' plot of patchy grass a yard.

10.You consider Westchester "upstate".

11.You think Central Park is "nature."

12.You see nothing odd about the speed of an auctioneer's speaking.

13.You're paying $1,200 for a studio the size of a walk-in closet and you think it’s a "steal."

14.You've been to New Jersey twice and got hopelessly lost both times.

15.You pay more each month to park your car than most people in the U.S. pay in rent.

16.You haven't seen more than twelve stars in the night sky since you went away to camp as a kid.

17.You go to dinner at 9 and head out to the clubs when most Americans are heading to bed.

18.Your closet is filled with black clothes.

19.You haven't heard the sound of true absolute silence since the 80s, and when you did, it terrified you.

20.You pay $5 without blinking for a beer that cost the bar 28 cents.

21.You take fashion seriously.

22.Being truly alone makes you nervous.

23.You have 27 different menus next to your telephone.

24.Going to Brooklyn is considered a "road trip."

25.America west of the Hudson is still theoretical to you.

26.You've gotten jaywalking down to an art form.

27.You take a taxi to get to your health club to exercise.

28.Your idea of personal space is no one actually standing on your toes.

29.$50 worth of groceries fit in one paper bag.

30.You have a minimum of five "worst cab ride ever" stories.

31.You don't notice sirens anymore.

32.You live in a building with a larger population than most American towns.

33.Your doorman is Russian, your grocer is Korean your deli man is Israeli, your building super is Italian, your laundry guy is Chinese, your favorite bartender is Irish, your favorite diner owner is Greek, the watchseller on your corner is Senegalese, your last cabbie was Pakistani, your newsstand guy is Indian and your favorite falafel guy is Egyptian.

34.You're suspicious of strangers who are actually nice to you.

35.You secretly envy cabbies for their driving skills.

36.You think $7.00 to cross a bridge is a fair price.

37.Your door has more than three locks.

38.Your favorite movie has DeNiro in it.

39.You consider eye contact an act of overt aggression.

40.You run when you see a flashing "Do Not Walk" sign at the intersection.

41.You're 35 years old and don't have a driver's license.

42.You ride in a subway car with no air conditioning just because there are seats available.

43.You're willing to take in strange people as roommates simply to help pay the rent.

44.There is no North and South...

45.It's uptown or downtown.

46.When you're away from home, you miss "real" pizza and "real" bagels.

47.You know the differences between all the different Ray's Pizzas.

48.You're not in the least bit interested in going to Times Square on New Year's Eve.

49.Your internal clock is permanently set to know when Alternate Side of the Street parking regulations are in effect.

50.You know what a bodega is.

51.You know how to fold the New York Times in half, vertically, so that you can read it on the subway or bus without knocking off other passenger's hats.

52.Someone bumps into you, and you check for your wallet.....

53.You cringe at hearing people pronounce Houston St. like the city in Texas

54.Film crews on your block annoy you, not excite you.

55. People from other states cant tell a polar bear from a peanut, but they know you're from NY the second you open your mouth.

56. When you are able to make a right turn at a red light.. you think it's the best thing ever.

57. Rather than waiting safely on the sidewalk to cross the street, you wait inches away from speeding traffic waiting to cut through it.

58. Your local news is national news.

59. You walk a mile in 13 minutes and think that everything should be open 24/7.

60. You know who Dr. Z is...

61. You think you know better than everyone else in the world.. when in reality.. well.. you do

everything is fucking great!
yep, finally,
when no one wanted me, now ppl in the office fight over me, they want me join another division on another floor, but my former boss doesn't want to let me go.....haha, i really kinda wanna go, they are so funny, these old rich guys from the office ROCK!
Daniel is shy about me, haha, what an ass , but i still like him, alfo loves me and this cute guy from the fin class is adorable as hell
man, i am a pervert !
i can't stop thinking about sex
haha, ok i am on a good vibe today

p.s. i might go clubing on friday with my coworkers, hm, should i or should i not?
i get wild when i get drunk, do i want them to see me like that???

Let's try and understand Marketing
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You see a fabulous girl/guy at a party. You approach them and say, "I'm fantastic in bed."

That's Direct Marketing.

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a fabulous girl/guy. You have one of your friends approach them, point at you and say, "She's/He's fantastic in bed."

That's Advertising.

You see a fabulous girl/guy at a party. You approach them to get their telephone number. The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'm fantastic in bed."

That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a fabulous girl/guy. You get up, straighten your clothes, walk up and pour them a drink. You open the door, pick up their bag after it drops, offer them a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm fantastic in bed."

That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a fabulous girl/guy. They walk up to you and say, "I hear you're fantastic in bed."

That's Brand Recognition.

NO MORE FIGHTS WITH MY PARENTS
they are awesome and i am an IDIOT
think think think before you speak!!!!
dont ruin waht u have

plz god help me, no more stupid fights!

after all, how badly do i want it
i am still my fathers daughter
and i would cry to do as my fathers done
but what about my dreams and goals?
i live my life just like my fathers done
and my heart is in chain
so tell me why, every time i try, i cant let it go
i cant be independent, am i glad? mad? sad?

despite all that, i am still am
hurt over mine and i live my life just like ...........
i am losing my best friend, i can feel it
but thats ok, i will find a new one , soon, i believe

recieved my check from old job, and spend it all in one shot
i bought two new pairs of italian shoes and took my mother to the japanise restaurant for the breakfast

thats my friday, not much fun, nothing going on , dull and boring
i wish my life could change........

i wish i was somewhere romantic , by myself, drinking wine on a facade of local cafe.... reading local business newspaper, but only fashion and gossip section... thinking about my present and not the future.... looking around for cute men....wearing nice laced dress ....a church on my left....an old ancient building on my right....no lights....no hasstle....

no way................................................................
never................................................................

i wish i was that character from the book that i read this summer
what a life.....

p.s. my regular down swing side :)

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