A good event all round I believe, congratulations Pete. No more wooing though, please god no more wooing. Anyway, fun event all round like I said. Bugman's is a very nice ale, and the sticks and balls gnomish game has its attractions. Although there were times I was wishing for a heavy, blunt object . That's just a standard thing though.

So the event was good, although since it was unsanctioned very little plot occured. Actually none, just socialising and people having fun, and the two Primal Urge cats tormenting people.

Started out on Saturday fairly badly though, went back to my phobic of being touched or even near people state. Kind of tore up my arm a little by accident while I was trying to concentrate on not fleeing Pizza Hut at high speed balin:. Still, I survived, and by the event itself I'd recovered to be my normal charming self. Its odd though, I either can't stand to be touched, or I crave it. Recently its been mostly the craving, but for a long time it was the phobic reaction.

So we met up with Pete, Gem and Belly for a while in town before heading back to Chris' to drop stuff off and get changed. Then came the night itself. Good fun, chatted with people, learned names, enjoyed myself, went back to Chris' a little before midnight. Unfortunately he'd popped out, so we then had to hunt him down in order to get back into the house.

A quick splash of water and most of the makeup was gone, and then we moved on to sort sleeping arrangements. After a little debate it was easy enough to decide. Two sleepy people, two awake people. Problem solved.

Chatted for quite a while before sleeping, and even told a couple of stories. Gonna have to reread the Just So stories now, just so that I can tell them.

Then the drive home this morning. Nice drive, managed to find The Truth on booktape on the way back and had that on for the last hour or so of the drive. Got home, and pretty much crashed for a while. Now up at Mike's, and probably about to put together furniture. Should be interesting at least, must try not to get limbs caught in furniture.

Bunny

In a few hours we're off to the pub night. Looking forward to the chance to be a bouncy, devious, evil little foxkin rather than just me. Hopefully I'll even be able to get myself sorted again as well, that'd be nice.

Anyway, last night people came over to try on costumes and get pictres taken. I discovered that my hat is perfect for sleeping under, Indiana Jones style , and also made up some nicely caffeinated Igor bars.

Not quite sure what to do now. Only really posting because I wanted to not be bored for a while, and none of the normal people I talk to are online, while Dori's enjoying her lie-in, and my other methods of coping with such situations either aren't working or aren't suitable. We're not leaving for an hour or so yet, and will hopefully hear from Cath either before then, or en route.

Aha! Music. I could do with that. Good calming music. Help me hide the fact that my temper's been boiling this week .

Everything's pretty much packed and ready to go. Just waiting for everyone else to be ready.

Must find a Russian phrase book or something, I need to know how to make a private entry . Ah well, this'll do for now, its not as if its something I could forget.

Bunny

I really wish I understood people . How hard would it be to just issue everyone with a little manual when they learn to read, explaining how people work? Its amazing how the smallest things that people say can cause the most damage, and how just when you think you've reached a nice emotional plateau where you're above it all, one little comment will cause the whole thing to fall apart and dump you straight back into the sea. You can't run and hide from them, because humans need other people around, and you can't deal with them, because no person can or will ever truly understand any other. All that you can do is try and reach the best accomodation possible to keep everyone if not happy, then relatively content .

Why is it that its just when you think you've managed to lock away all of those things that you swore you'd never do again, something happens that brings them boiling back to the surface. Its not true that you have to confront your issues, because depending on the issues they are un-confrontable. But you can't lock them away because then they seethe under the surface, revealing themselves in tiny little things you don't even realise that you're doing until they've all come back out, and you need to concentrate on stamping them back down again.

The worst bit is that I tend to be able to talk to people, I can work out exactly what they want to hear, I just don't understand why.

To top it all off, before I went to bed this morning I did something that I haven't done for almost five years, and told myself I'd never do again. Shows what I know.

I honestly don't know what today has been. I woke up early and had a shower (hair going another shade darker, permanent dye my arse ). I was feeling relaxed, if a little sleepy, and then drove Dori into Guildford, picking up Annie and Mike on the way. Then Dori started to say that she wasn't feeling well, and didn't want to go in. I started to tell her she should. Then there was one, completely unrelated chance comment, and I said something I shouldn't have done.

I don't actually remember the drive to the university, or quite what I did afterwards until I was parked back in the car park, out of the car, and heading towards Chancellors. I sort of remember it, but only the tail end, when I was on the A3 heading towards London and managed to get off in time at the exit.

Took Dori home after that, picking her back up from the AQA, and put her to bed, under orders that she was not to move from the bed. She's pretty much stuck to those orders all day.

Anyway, now headed back up to pick up Mike and Annie from work. Annie's gone off to have her hair dyed (apparently my offer to dye her hair green with polka dots was too adventurous, so she's gone for plain black, good thing too as I think I'm out of green paint). Then I'm hanging around here for a while, writing this before heading up to play on the Xbox until Annie's done. All to be followed by a triumphant trip back down to mine with everyone to put on our costumes, and have pictures taken with swords.

Oh, and to find sleeping bags.

I'm really looking forwards to this pub night. I need to not be me for a while, at least for a few hours while I sort out who me is.

Bunny

An interesting night to say the least. To start with we headed off to Need's first run as a DJ, and I have to say the music was at the least good, if not better.

Actually that's not quite where it all began, so lets go back to the start. Got up early this morning to drive Dori, Mike and Annie to work. After a drive which was far, far too long, finally managed to get to Mike's, and discovered that in fact neither of them were going to work.

Naturally this put Dori off a little, so no one went to work in the end, and instead we headed upstairs to watch Futurama. Futurama is good, and lasted until around one o'clock in the afternoon when we headed home and I actually managed to do some work.

Then waited at home a while while Dori tried out her new birthday presents, and took a nap, before I headed back up to Guildford (with Dori still asleep) to have a quick chat with someone, and then meet up with people. Managed to have the quick chat, although I think a longer one is needed to explain, however there's a message for that person later in this entry. Then picked up Chris from the station, and headed back down to Woking to pick up Dori before we all headed up to Need's (as yet) unnamed night.

Proceeded to drink at the pub, and talk to people. Interesting stuff happened, including rather loud and overly honest yelling over the music. My standard mask slipped a little.

Anyway, proceeded to continue to drink (including tequila without lemon slices) and listen to music before everyone headed home. Gave everyone a lift, and on the way back to mine with just Dori in the car had a rather interesting and philosophical chat on my standard topics.

For those who have heard me talk about similar topics in the car, you'll know what I mean. For those who haven't, you'll have to wait and find out.

Anyway, moving on again. Got home, and am currently sitting in front of the computer in yet another mellow mood with a pint of cookie dough ice cream. I'll be going in to Guildford tomorrow to give the usuals a lift in, and to pick up my own car from the garage at last.

Only other thing of note that happened today was that my baton arrived disturbingly early. Lovely little toy it is too.

And yet again I am unable to sleep, while Dori's quietly in bed . I don't know why it is, maybe I'm just suffering from insomnia at the moment.

Finally I'm starting up the next colour vote. Basically when the dye does finally wash out, I don't know which colour to go for next, and would welcome suggestions. Nothing completely unnatural like green or pink please though. I'm not that far gone yet.

Oooh...pretty gun .

Bunny

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Today I woke up just plain tired, bone weary. First time its happened in a while, which probably means I should try and get to sleep earlier. Usually that helps. As a result I've been slightly out of it all day, but stuff has happened all the same.

Work's still going well, if a little tiring and usually quite dull. Commissions should be arriving soon with any luck, at which point I'll be able to afford things again.

Things like food for example.

I'm also still incredibly tempted by the various coats that Annie has cruelly revealed to me on web pages. I think I should be able to resist, hopefully, but I'm just worried that as soon as I do get money its going to vanish into coathood. This coat in particular.

Actually got a new CD today, or six of them rather, first time I've bought a CD in at least a year. Lovely little album with a selection of chillout tracks. I think its slowly melting me, so I should finish this up and get over to Mike's fairly quickly before I can't move any more.

Other stuff I have to do: make another batch of Igor bars for the pub night, since the ones I made are rapidly vanishing. Have a bath tonight, that'll be nice as well.

Must buy a tank to avoid rush hour traffic. Was reminded of this by one of the many lovely smileys .

No more pointless philosophising today, you'll be glad to hear. Anyone who did appreciate the philosophy please get in touch with me. Oh, and one other thing. I'm gonna start the 'get Bunny a pretty coat fund', also known as GBAPCF. Anyone can feel free to donate whatever nonexistent money they might not have by sending it to a nonexistent address. In return I shall do something. I don't know what yet.

Bunny

Addendum: People came round. We had a few drinks and watched finding Nemo, with the addition of a few curries.

Today I woke up just plain tired, bone weary. First time its happened in a while, which probably means I should try and get to sleep earlier. Usually that helps. As a result I've been slightly out of it all day, but stuff has happened all the same.

Work's still going well, if a little tiring and usually quite dull. Commissions should be arriving soon with any luck, at which point I'll be able to afford things again.

Things like food for example.

I'm also still incredibly tempted by the various coats that Annie has cruelly revealed to me on web pages. I think I should be able to resist, hopefully, but I'm just worried that as soon as I do get money its going to vanish into coathood. This coat in particular.

Actually got a new CD today, or six of them rather, first time I've bought a CD in at least a year. Lovely little album with a selection of chillout tracks. I think its slowly melting me, so I should finish this up and get over to Mike's fairly quickly before I can't move any more.

Other stuff I have to do: make another batch of Igor bars for the pub night, since the ones I made are rapidly vanishing. Have a bath tonight, that'll be nice as well.

Must buy a tank to avoid rush hour traffic. Was reminded of this by one of the many lovely smileys .

No more pointless philosophising today, you'll be glad to hear. Anyone who did appreciate the philosophy please get in touch with me. Oh, and one other thing. I'm gonna start the 'get Bunny a pretty coat fund', also known as GBAPCF. Anyone can feel free to donate whatever nonexistent money they might not have by sending it to a nonexistent address. In return I shall do something. I don't know what yet.

Bunny

Fourth time trying to get this page to load and I finally manage. Dunno why my computer seems to hate me at the moment, but it really does .

Stuff that's happened recently. Absolutely nothing really. A little bit of feeling incredibly guilty today on two counts, firstly because I assumed that Dori just had a slight cold and was being lazy when she didn't want to go to work this morning. Turns out she was actually in quite a bad way, so that made me feel really good. Then to top it off I can't get to sleep tonight, so she goes to bed alone again. I'm really starting to hate surviving on five hours of sleep a night. Wish I could just drop off when I want to, but life doesn't seem to work like that .

As for things happening tomorrow, I need to go into town at some point to meet up with Mike and Annie, a trip that Dori is banned from joining us on. If she's in the same state as today then she wouldn't be anyway, so I don't feel too bad about that one. Honest. Guv.

It seems that any day I post on this thing I've been in an odd mood. Taking a leaf from Mike's book this should logically mean that if I don't post on this, then the bad mood did not officially happen.

Somehow I doubt it'll work like that.

Other stuff that's happening this week. Social drinking session somewhere at some point to celebrate Dori's birthday . I think it'll be good for me. If anyone who's there happens to read this, I could probably do with a good club upside the head. Certainly feeling like it would do me good at the moment.

And finally, all of you are fantastic, unique people. When you die the living world will lose that unique pattern, and be less for the loss, all that anyone can hope to leave behind is the memories and thoughts that other people have of you. The only immortality is granted by other people. Be remembered.

Dunno why, but I just suddenly started feeling mellow.

Anyway, all of you have a good one.

Bunny

Aha! After five minutes of searching I managed to find the make new post button again, but to be absolutely honest . Once again in just a plain weird mood. Just decided that I was fed up with a little wanker begging with his mates over and over to ask to be allowed back onto the forum, and so gave him the following message - "If you don't have the fucking spine to ask to be allowed back into MAP yourself, then I'm not even going to give a bloody thought to asking people for you. Grow a backbone and ask them yourself, or fuckoff and join some jerkoff forum like Bullshido." Suddenly felt a lot less stressed.

The conversation went downhill from there, although I enjoyed it. I managed to get myself blocked on IM even, and I don't think the little twerp will be trying to join the forum again.

Now suddenly much less pissed off. I have a shiny new desk, where I can get everything disorganised and carefully set up. It even has that freshly put-together Ikea smell. Unfortunately its meant that I've had to remove one of my swords from the wall.

In the middle of a massive guilt-trip though. Drew things out too long when I was putting it together and getting my hair dyed, so we didn't manage to get our post-valentine's dinner. Having refused to do anything on Valentine's day, I now have massive guilt. However I also have a scheme, which I won't put on here as I know that Dori reads the journal, and don't want her to find out. For the time being though, here, have some virtual flowers. Freshly picked from our neighbour's back garden.

Generically, I'm just bored again, and hyper, and awake, and actually want to watch the last Indiana Jones film now that I've seen the first two. Should get Dori to bed though, and I'd feel guilty once again now accompanying her.

Anyway, depending on boredom and wakefulness levels I might still be up later, and might post again. Although I really don't think anything interesting has happened besides the orange hair and the desk.

Oh, and the waitress in a pub on the way back from Ikea asking for my phone number. Slightly awkward situation for a moment, especially as my two mates were off getting drinks and couldn't protect me . Did manage to solve it quite easily though, so I'm not complaining. Kind of flattering really.

Bunny