If you peer in the future...
( or rather in my afternoon dreams :))
Somewhere there in the calender sheet
Our Day is expecting us sleeping
where My hands with your palms meet
where your heart finds mine
........... ......(to stop weeping)
This day is orange and It has white clouds
It tastes like cinnamon and sour apple
its sleeves are made of birds' songs (sung loud)
tied with the laces of rain drops on the chapel
Its pocket is full of pieces of words
which we will try to assemble together
if we do them wrong, with a feather of bird
we'll touch and forgive, and bring sunny weather
....:-))
In the palms of this day there is a bedding
in which, even sleeping,I do love - only You
and bluish and purple over it linger shedding
the quiet ... long-waited : "I'll always be true "
There is a small window ,flights of white doves
there is a nice curtain on yellow flowers
there is something speechless and nice (up above)
that I cannot utter in this very hour...
The morning of This day is out of breath
it makes me become all, entirely yours
The afternoon's sagging until nothing's left
it is never-ending ,there's no parting,of course
Somewhere there, in the calendar sheets
Our day's shivering - waiting us for to see
Is it so far ? Will it soon be complete ?
I don't know,But I know - you are there with me...
Ти ме събираш, когато от бурите
в посока на никъде се разпилявам.
Ти ме усмихваш, когато във тъмното
сълзите по миглите тихичко парят.
Ти ме мълчиш, когато съм в себе си…
когато от думите смисълът чезне.
Ти ме възвръщаш, когато, отнесена,
политам на долу към глъхнеща бездна.
И в мене се ражда нещо голямо…
Нещо, което не съм и сънувала.
Нещо без име. Неназовано.
До днес на света не съществувало.
И е топло. И галещо. И така ми е хубаво…
И се смея, и плача. На пролет приличам.
И чак ме е страх, че така съм се влюбила.
Както никой до днес Тебе обичам…
You're gathering me when after the storms
I've been dispersing in a thousand directions
You make me smile when in the dark forms
the tears on lashes make warm intersections
Then you stay silent, when I'm in myself
when words fade away all their meanings
you make me come back, when just like an elf
I fall in chasm and my voice's not screaming
Deep down into me something big has been born
something I've never even been dreaming
It has no name , no one has it called
because it the world it hasn't been living
It is warm and caressing and I feel so nice
And I laugh and I cry ,just like a spring
I little afraid ...I'm in love.. and it flies
as Nobody before I love YOU ... and I sing...
Живееш под клепачите ми вечер.
А денем – във отворените ми очи.
Ти си река. И в твоето поречие
сърцето си забравено открих.
Потапям длан. Водите променливи
оставят светли капчици по нея.
Докосвам с устни…(жадна ли бях?)
Не знам. За първи път живея…
Ти си река. Не мога да те имам…
Загубих ли те? Или те открих?
Оставам на брега ти. По – щастлива.
Ще бъдеш ли със мене по-щастлив..?
You're living at night under my lashes
you're living at day in my open eyes
you're a river,in your river bank splashes
I found a place where my forgotten heart lies
I'm dipping my palm , the waters are changing
and they leave some light drops right onto it
with lips I'm touching(my thirst I'm quenching)
I have no idea , for the first time I live .
You're a river .And I can not have you
Have I lost you ? Or it is You I have found ?
On your shore I am staying .And I am happier.
Will you also be happy when I am around ...?
I find myself again.
I'm a piece of a legend
of unknown long-forgotten nation
I don't have a name
But I know in my veins
I keep secrets
of words ,life-invasion...
I run along barefoot
my hair is a flowing mane
and the wind is now drunk
and finds shadows of birds
there...
hidden in a tiny lane
there is foam
Suns and stars (sometimes hurts)
I'm looking for Him
He's MY... Only One
He is making the legend complete
and I miss Him a lot
Do I miss Him ? ( I'm done )
after a so many lives
in parting deceit ....
This is me ....
taken of a fairy-telling
of forgotten and strange
nation land
I bring happiness
but also suffering ...swelling
and for Him I bring
Love Till the...
very End.
Дай ми ново име... Името ми е Далечница.22-10-2018 15:02
Дай ми ново име...
Името ми е Далечница.
Не протягай ръка да ме пипнеш.
Аз от теб съм на хиляди вечности.
Зад стени от метал се зазидах.
Скрих сърцето си в малък рапан.
На вратата си сложих камбанка.
Да не идва при мен Любовта.
Да си тръгва, додето е рано.
Но защо ли без Теб ме боли...
И защо ли очите ми плачат?
Всеки атом във мене си ти...
Ти си разказът. И разказвачът.
Тези тежки стени покрай мен,
не железни, от страх се оказаха...
И заспива зад тях, потушен,
всеки опит от там да изляза...
А те искам! Съвсем до безумие...
Да прелея във теб сетивата си...
Да покълна във теб като музика.
Да съм твоя жена. Безостатъчно.
Ти не знаеш...И аз се тая
в моя свят, зад стените от страх...
Всяка мисъл за теб е сълза.
И е обич. И лудост... мълча...
Път към мен се намира, понякога.
През стените от страх и от вечност.
Продължи да ме търсиш нататъка...
Мойто име сега е Далечност.
П.П. Скоро ти ми каза, че е много по-лесно да разрушиш нещо, отколкото да създадеш.
А днес гледах "Мечо Пух" и той каза "Изглежда, много по-лесно е да изгубиш нещо, от колкото да го намериш".
Явно една анимационно-плюшена мечка е по-мъдра от мен...
Don't put out your hand there to touch me
I'm away from you...(maybe out of this world)
I have walled in myself, (for No one to watch me)
I hid my heart in a tiny sea-shell
and a bell I have put on my door
not to let the love come as a spell
and to leave ,not to stay here for more
But why without You the pain's here to be...
and without You my eyes are tear-dweller ?
you are each and every atom in me...
you're the Story and also the Story-teller.
These walls around me seem heavy,
not of concrete,they are made of fear...
getting out every time takes its levy
and I still sleep with it over here
But I want you! So much ..insane...
to infuse all my senses in you
to sink in your body ( like musical flame )
to be your woman -to the last bit .So true.
You don't know...And I'm hiding here
in my world behind my walls of fear
every thought about you is a ..sheer
madness , love , silence ..and tear...
A road to me can,sometimes,be found
through the walls of eternal fear
keep on searching for me ( follow the sound )
Поне за птиците ще има... заради ТОВА. И не само...22-10-2018 15:01
Поне за птиците ще има...
заради ТОВА.
И не само...
Ако той си отиде от мен
ще умрат ветровете в очите ми.
Ще съм кръгче в дъждовна вода.
Ще съм празна.Бездомна. И ничия.
Ще сънувам полета от макове,
във които заспивам. Безпаметна.
Ще тупти, татуирано с болка,
и сърцето ми...на обратно.
Ще се пръсне душата ми стъклена.
Ще звънят по паважа парченцата.
(За да бъдат събрани наново
ще са нужни две хиляди вечности.)
Любовта ми ще стане на хляб,
от прозрения късни. И истини.
Който вместо на него, ще дам
като шепа трошици. На птиците.
( because of THIS->
"if you leave for a moment"
a song by "Impulse" )
but not JUST because of this...
If HE leaves..If HE leaves away from me
all the winds will die in my eyes
a circle in cold rainy water I'll be
so empty and homeless...there will be no sky
and I'll be dreaming of poppy fields
where I go to sleep , nothing to remember
my heart will be thumping ( but it can't be healed )
all tattooed with pain upside down burning ember
And my glass soul will break into pieces
all the pieces will clink on the sidewalk
(and the time to collect it together increases
about two thousand eternities (counted by clock)
And my love will turn into bread
from late enlightenments and truth (well it hurts)
which I'll give not to HIM , but instead
as a handful of crumbs ... to the birds...
Със разтворени жълти листенца.
И се будя от приказен сън
в който с тебе вървим към Далечето...
Ти докосваш с лъчи топлодланни
мойте крехки копнежни съцветия.
Аз съм ехо и шепот полянен.
И съм твоя. Уханна. И светла.
И се взирам във теб. И те шепна.
Ти ме имаш разцъфнала лятно.
Слънчоглед съм...И жълто потрепвам
като вливаш във мен капки злато.
Все те искам с очи. Непрестанно.
И съм жадна. И още те търся...
Ти изгряваш във мен. Настоятелно.
И ме пълниш със обич и слънце...
I'm like a sunflower in a fresh morning
with yellow leaves opening wide
I'm waking from a dream where I have been soaring
with you on a path that leads Far Behind
With your soft rays and with your palms
you are touching my fragile stamens
I'm an echo and whisper that calms
I am yours full of light ( I'm becoming)
And I look into you, and I whisper
and you have me I've blossomed in summer
'cos you fill golden drops ( and I'm crystal )
I'm so yellow... like heavy sunflower
And my eyes always say "Hey ,I want you !"
and I'm thirsty , still looking for you
you are rising in me ..persistently longing
and you're filling myself-sunny love(and sea blue)
Есен съм във мислите му.
Сладкоплодна.
Ябълково вино.
Дъхав сок…
Кехлибарено узряла.
Като грозде.
С вкус на обич.
Лудост.
И живот.
Резенче от дюля на езика му.
А под пръстите му –
плодчета от шипка.
От дъха му съм прозрачна.
Като истина.
И разтварям себе си.
Във тихото..
Аз го искам…
Даже до безумие.
Като топла медена роса.
Да попие в мен.
И аз да лумна.
Да съм неговия
Есенен пожар…
I'm the golden autumn in his thoughts
sweet and fruity like cider wine
aromatic juice with amber that floats
grapes tasting insane-true life,love of mine
I'm a quince slice onto his tongue
berries of dog rose under his fingers
his breath makes me clear, transparently sung
dissolving myself when quietness lingers..
And I want him ...madly and insane
like a warm honey dew in early morning
to soak in my body and light up my flame
to be his autumn fire - burning ,adorning...
just a step now I have till the end
just a step till I reach up there
then free falling to the harden land
with the gravity - love and despair
parashute? ..can't help me... alas
and it seems I have none of this kind
and I want to start running at last
on the edge I am standing with light
At the end I may want to jump down
without thinking that I'm really scared
then I probably cry ( but I will have flown )
in the sky ...it is so magic there ....
Когато си на 8,
знаеш,
че можеш да видиш
Слънцето отблизо,
когато погледнеш към него
със затворени очи.
Виждаш червената му лава,
пулсиращите оранжеви кръгове,
жълтите пръски...
въобще...виждаш го
сякаш си
на две педи от него.
Когато пораснеш
се сещаш,
че никога
никога
никога
не си гледал
Луната. Отблизо.
Сигурно от страх
да не се разочароваш
от несъвършенствата и.
When You are eight
you know you can see
the Sun form a very close distance
only when you look at It
with your eyes closed
You ca see its red lava
its pulsing orange circles
its yellow splashes
and ... you see it as if
you are so close to It
When you grow
one day you remember that
you have never, never seen
the Moon so close.
Maybe it was ...because
you were afraid
not to get disappointed
when you finf She is imperfect...
The woman with eyes like a magic so ancient
can see all the world in her own childish way
eternal the secrets are that her tears are hiding
almost impossible ...wicked, real( some say )
When she wakes up ,the night becomes fissured
and tunes of sunshine run into her hairs
when she goes to sleep,constellations are issued
and white fading mists go down ...over there
When she is in love ,the seasons are gone
and Time starts into a direction unknown
she looks like a bird in a high flight ,alone
because she's in love ,and the Sky is her Throne
The woman with eyes like a magic so ancient
knows all of your heart,as if it is hers
and she rules your mind ,elements can't be patient
but she's really yours -in the whole Universe...
Не се опитвай със очи да ме събираш.
Нито със длани. Нито със сърце.
Отдавна, безнадеждно разпиляна,
живея в стъпките на нощни ветрове.
Отдавна станах от русалка - птица.
За кратко между двете бях жена.
За да съм влюбена във тебе го поисках...
А, ти, изглежда, даже не разбра.
Сега не можеш да ме стигнеш. Не опитвай.
Мисли за мен като за минал сън.
Със стъпките на ветровете си отивам.
Не съм била до теб...Не съм...
Don't try to collect me with eyes
nor with your palms , nor with your heart
it the steps of night winds ..there I lie
I've scattered myself and I am apart
I have turned from mermaid into bird
(and I was a woman just for a while)
I wanted to love you , here on Earth
but you just seems didn't get on my smile
Now you can reach me no more .Don't you try
think about me as a dream from the past
I'm going away... with the winds now I fly
I haven't been to you ...or I have passed...
За някого Луната може да е цвете...22-10-2018 11:50
За някого Луната може да е цвете...
"Ако обичаш едно цвете, което съществува
само в един екземпляр сред милиони и
милиони звезди, това стига, за да си щастлив,
когато гледаш звездите.
Мислиш си: " Моето цвете е там някъде..."
Антоан Дьо Сент-Екзюпери, "Малкият принц"
Тази юлска Луна - просякиня
крие в шепи лъчи от Слънца.
И говори с очи на комините
колко тъжна била. И сама.
Как я галел понякога Вятърът,
но за кратко, за няма и миг.
После тръгвал, бездомен, нанякъде,
без да знае, че тя ще тъжи.
Мълчаливо ли плачат Луните?
Ветровете се влюбват в цветя.
А в небето за тях все разпитва
една юлска самотна Луна...
Някой ден ще се случи, обаче...
Под завеса от бледи звезди
ще покълне в сърцето и стръкче -
роза, обич...и Малкият Принц.
If you love a flower that is only one ..
that is only one of a kind ,
without a duplicate among millions...
and billions of stars...
it is enough to feel happy
while you are watching the stars .
You think :"My flower is somewhere there..."
Antoine de Saint Exupéry ,"The little prince"
This night in July - a lady who's begging
she's hiding so many hot Sunny rays
talking with eyes to the chimneys and sagging
telling them that she is sad on Her ways
Though the wind has been gentle to Her
it was just ...it was just... for a while
then He went , disappeared in blur
without knowing she feels sad ,with no smile
Do the Moons cry so very silent ?
And the winds fall in love with the flowers
in the Sky for them ,,, still asking in violet
stays a Moon in the lonely July hours
But One day it will surely happen...
under a curtain of fading stars' rinse
a soft stalk will sprout in her Lap
of rose ..of love and... the Little Prince.
Every drop of the rain's Universe
and of you it has hidden a piece
you're raining ,on me ( it's no curse)
and a sky I become - out of these...
I have clouds ,of the summer so heavy
I have birds, and stars and the Moon
I have sunrises and they are saving
in my eyes -you're raining ...soft tune
I have everything that I can need
just to touch down the Earth with my palm
cos' these raindrops ..my body they feed
you make me a Sky and a Woman ..so calm.
A new morning ...so far from You
and I need you I need you so much
Cos" I need in your arms gently true
to awake some tender soft touch
I want my lashes so heavy from sleep
to kiss lightly before the dawn
a handful of love ,a word softly creep
I need them so much ...they are flown
Just a breath ,just a palm ,just a thought
just a quiet sigh and a whisper
just your lips touching mine ...so.. a lot
to make me warm in the morning so crispy
Empty morning...That's without you
silent room scattered like snow
a raspberry wish melting in blue
you're away ..( and I'm waiting you more.)
The words ...get blown by the wind
("The answer is blowing in the wind")
......a song By Bob Dylan..........
The wind is as hot as the scorching hot Sun
and it smells exactly like the month of July
at dusk it is kissing the clouds(staying numb)
giving them lavender ( to make them not cry )
Then it is looking at Earth from above
and it finds that it is just like a sky
the stars are but tiny light of pure love
of constellations of towns scattered so shy
The wind is casting himself a day horoscope
then it goes down slowly - to tell it to me
then I whisper in His ear ..and I really hope
He'll tell you "I love you"(but you cannot see)
The wind is as hot as the scorching hot Sun
peeking surreptitiously behind the curtains
Now listen to Him it might tell you -"Dear one,
You know someone loves you?...
........You know it is for certain
Заглавието ми напомни една песен на Боб Дилън - "Отговорът с вятъра се носи" ....
Today my tenderness is a little bit scared.
It denies to get dressed into some words
She is feeling cold or she's feeling naked
She is breathing heavily ... maybe it hurts
A suspect that in love She has fallen
and She's saving herself just for Him
in his arms she'll huddle,purring (not stolen)
and She will be His,by the last touch and brim...
Now She rejects ...no more lines she would write
She says...she is bored and she's feeling "tight"
cos' everyone writes about birds ,love and flight
but all of my tenderness craves to become bright...
"There are so many trains , ships , planes ..."
( a part of a song ) ...and so what ...?
Over me ...lays seven tons of tiredness
and some kind of suspicion ,on top of all this
and I keep writing on the starry diaries
and I keep so silent ( but I doubt it's a bliss )
I'll get my bag and ...start to Somewhere
for me it is better "In the mid of Nowhere"
No more patience and waiting despair
I need time for My own (well, maybe I care)
These seven tons is an impudent fellow
It makes my lashes heavy at night
I felt myself even strange, weak and mellow
and It is still lying with all heavy might
But if .."I got the blues" ...just in a while
I'll hit the road ..the first one that I see
When I come back to me , I'll be back with a smile
if there is still somebody who's waiting for me
..............
..............
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