Когато думичката "вечност" ми харесва...28-10-2018 15:16
Когато думичката "вечност" ми харесва...
Някой мина през мен - ветрогонно и слънчево
и изсипа в ръцете ми всички съзвездия.
Засияха от изгрева уморените хълмове
и разпука земята им пролетна нежност.
Някой мина през мен и напъпиха вишните.
Нацъфтяха по клоните гнездата на птиците.
По брега се търкулна лениво затишие
и следобедът дълго и светло се стичаше.
Придойдоха тревите до коляно в поляните
и щурци предвещаваха сто звездопада.
Вечерта се облече в лилаво сияние.
Някой мина през мен...и дано да остане.
Someone passed through me - windy and sunny
and in my hands He poured all constellations
the tired hills smiled , now they are shining
all the land welcomed the spring warmy temptation
Someone passed through me - made cherries in blossom
and the nests of the birds bloomed on the trees
lazy calm air rolled down the beach ... awesome
and the afternoon lingered long and ... with ease
The grass grew knee - high ,so fresh and so green
and the crickets foresee so many stars falling
in violet the evening got dressed and it seem
someone passed -and I hope he stays with his calling ...
I'm embroidering raindrops in the eyes of the nights
and I'm sewing small suns, when daytime is out
when I'm falling in love, I ain't bad (and I fly)
and when I am sad - my silence speaks loud....
In my hands I collect the Wind's tears light
after that I am planting many colourful rainbows
when I leave behind me - everything is so bright
and strange at the same time, because it hurts so
In the green grass I lose my heart in the morning.
I am just a dew drop, and I taste I bit tart
I don't wanna sleep on one's lips as adornment
that is the reason, because of which ... I depart ...
Because I still can't collect all my being
it is easy for me to scatter around
I collect tiny pieces of silence and feelings
and my mirror is empty ,and in it there's no sound
I'm sticking two wings on my bare back,
but I cannot reach the sky, up with them
glow-worms in my eyes stay numb ,never lack
and it is so light and pure as gem ...
From My words three dots sprout all around
winds start their ways - now calm ,then quite strong
I can be random, or in purpose bound
but Noone stays by me, to hear my song
Perhaps only the One who fancies me (and my soul)
will learn all the ways to see my Universe
He'll make me a fairy tale , the best of all
and then at last I'll trust that love can disperse.
I'll hide softly in him, though pretty scattered
incomplete, timid ,wild, with so many tears
he'll give me a kiss , making me feel much better
forgiving my errors , and chasing my fears ...
The sea will not bring me...over to You...
( It wouldn't want to let me go )
It will be crying like small children do
the sea-plants will tear ( I will try to sew )
It will start so violetly to the quiet beach
and not waves, but tears will flow it over
the light-house eye will stay numb,out of reach
maybe for a life-time ,or even moreover ...
The sea-gulls will sadly fly all around
above naked steps I've left on the sand
they'll try to make the sky stay, with no sound
but It will be blind, it won't blaze over land
The sea will not bring me ... over to You
it won't believe (either) that we're apart
it will reach out its hands - loving and blue
to turn me a mermaid ( or a fine piece of art ) ...
Do not dare to touch me ever again !
The Black Moon is waking inside of me
The One that makes angry when God is in pain
with the eyes of the very first woman He see
I am not of those Eves, you probably know
My blood is like this, that flows in Lilith
into my pupils gleeds reflect and then blow
they are the ones you gonna burn in (and with)
It is hard and difficult for me to be yours
because I'm Nobody's - ever since I was born
One of my names is Sancta ( Rebellious )
though it's easy for me to love with no scorn
But today do not dare to touch me , do not !
I have awaken the Black Moon in me
after its rising all's in hands of God
The One that is real and genuine- this is She !
За дъжда, миражите и обърканите чувства...28-10-2018 15:07
За дъжда, миражите и обърканите чувства...
Все вали, и вали, и вали...
Кой качи водопад на небето?
Някак странно и тъжно красив
този дъжд прекроява сърцето ми.
Кара всички посоки във мен
да се слеят в една - все към тебе.
И пулсира с капчуков копнеж
всеки трепет, покълнал във вените.
По пунктира на твоята обич
много плахо ще тръгна сама.
Ще повярвам, че сигурно може
да премине във плътна черта.
Само дето не знам, дали ти
ще повярваш, че аз те обичам.
И на мен ми е трудно така...
Нямам чувства, да бъдат отричани.
Но сега...но сега, но сега...
през прозореца виждам как идваш.
Силует от дъждовна вода.
И сълзичка на края на миглите.
About the Rain, the mirages and the ...
baffling feelings
It's still raining - down ...on and on
who's put that waterfall into the sky ?
Somehow strange , sad but pretty, it shone
but this rain shapes my heart in new style
And It makes all directions in me
merge in One - that leads towards You
in a rain-pipe desire ,pulsing, you see
every thrill in my veins - growing so true
On the dotted line of your affection
I will start , very timid, alone
I'll believe - there will be intersection
where this line becomes solidly sewn
But the thing that I wouldn't know
is whether you will believe in my love
It is hard for me , but in my soul
No feelings I have - to be denied thereof
But right now ,at this moment I see...
through the window that ... You are coming
a silhouette made of rain-water glee
a tear-drop in my lashes that's humming ...
I don't have one name.I have a lot of
That's why I don't know Who I am in fact
a piece of the Moon in the morning (or sort of)
and a statue of sand in an evening, intact
I am so little like morello soft blossom
and the wind pampers me with his tender palms
then I am big ,as truth ,so colossal
after which I can easily ressurect in the psalms
I am ... black-and-white , as a movie of Chaplin
and it is very sad that I lack all the words
I am also a colourful overflow and a chaplet
in the lips of your madness (together with birds)
I am all, I am everything. On the edge of the Nothing
I am finding and losing - it is ... all the same
I'm asking you simply, not at all baffling :
"Would you like (as a present) to give me a new
The sunset is kissing the curves of the hill
and ... all the clouds are burning in red
a shy Moon is rolling on the coming April
down on the palms of the spring green-side bed
The wind isn't breathing, It stands still, even bent
among the small blossoms of the spring branches
The stars perch slowly in the sky , above land
everything's like an unlocked memory that lauches...
There is a fragrance of woken-up grasses
of a soft Southern rain, and a birds' flight above
it is so nice and silence embrases us
and now I can say I feel love , only love ...
It is so easy to understand ...
(I've already said I am illogical)
today I'm a cloud in the sky above land
I learn to love , and it sounds mythological...
It is so easy to understand ...
(No matter I can't do it even myself)
I will be cuddling in somebody's hands
to make them learn - to play me - as an elf
You simply cannot ... understand me
Maybe , because ... You never wanted ?
but it is so easy , very easy ,you see
the start of your tale I am,
..........in your life I just saunter ....
Do not pass through your narrow sieve
all my words and all of my tears.
I'm a girl ,though you might not believe
I'm a spring in these rocks through the years.
I'm a piece of a Moon in green colour
I'm a puff of the breeze in the grass
I'm a crust of the warm bread (in a palace)
taste of honey ,water-dew in a glass
I'm a glass of a tart , bitter wine
I'm a universe, beach and direction
I'm a touch of a body.A picture divine.
A relief and a thirst ,and a painful infection
I may laugh, I may cry,I am silent and sad
I'm the same -and it means- I am totally different
I create but I also I can ruin ( very bad )
Can you love me like that ?- if you can't...
....................... stay indifferent...
And I become transparent and invisible
melting so quietly in the bluish twilight
the wind's chimney melody seems very feasible
he is some kind of a trumpeter in the night
The world is forgetting me ,and ... So are you
(but for me - all the world - is merely you)
see the light 'bove antennas , yellow on blue
this half-peeped and bitten Moon looks very true
Today I am sadder than all the girls
deserted and lonesome and all alone
I wanted to tell you "I love YOU in this world"
I'd better stay quiet, my heart's like a stone ...
Why didn't you hear when I told you "Don't open !"
why did you want to peer deep into me ?
now your eyes smart and tears fall soft...and
the air's so tart , it is burning in thee*
Your hands are shaking and you breathe so hard
are You dying , Oh , no - it would be too easy
you shouldn't have looked deep down in my heart
the words are so powerful ,not only teasing ...
Now did you understand what I am , in fact
the lid of the box can't close, it's too hard
the answers to your questions and to your act
I will stay late awake, without even a guard
Because I'm the illness into your soul
and I smart just like salt in a deep sore
cos' I'm your black curse , and that is all
why didn't you hear when I told you "No more!"
Out of curiosity... you say "Out of love"?
c'mon, stop that - No one uses It to look at me
if you have used it - it would not have been tough
there's my hope on bottom and it's easy to see...
Do not hurry to fancy me , until the end
I am not of this world a girl, aren't I ?
I finish the tale , and we are all friends
'cause I want it so ,and please don't ask why
I always deny the most simple truths
what everybody has named with word "love"
when I am crying It is really , true
though I don't know why, it is sent from above
I imagine myself that I am a sorcereess
but You maybe, somehow, don't believe that
but I am keeping very neat and so carefully
my invisible wings (that sometimes I clad)
You were the one I didn't cast my spell on
although I wanted it - more than any other
The questions are mute ,they just linger on
not knowing the reason I fell in love with you suddenly
But this isn't important , at least it seems so
when You're pouring like rain ,it is like in fall
if I have the power just a bit , not the whole
I swear you find ... happiness - that is all ...
Когато залезът се пръсне по небето
и птиците повярват в пролетта,
когато всички думи във сърцето ти
замлъкнат и се вслушат в обичта,
когато устните ти се научат нежно
по кожата ми да рисуват огън,
когато във очите ти копнежът
стопи заключената в мен умора,
вземи ме. Твоя съм. Напълно.
Стаена, кротка, светла и добра -
едно цветче, в душата ти покълнало,
под топлите ръце на любовта...
When the sunset sprinkles on the sky
when the birds believe in coming spring
when all the words in your heart wanna fly
but only stay silent to this love listening...
When your lips learn so soft and tenderly
to draw burning fire onto my skin
when desire in your eyes you're sending me
melts all my tiredness locked-in, within
Come, take me, I'm yours, entirely, all-
so calm and so quiet, so light and so good
a tiny flower that has grown ... in your soul
under the warm hands of love ,there it stood ...
Каква съм? Не ме питай...и аз не знам...
Сутрин съм малка. Будя се и скачам от леглото да видя изгрева.През лятото.
А през зимата не. Будя се и се зарявам още по-дълбоко във завивките.Стискам очи, силно, с надеждата, че когато ги отворя, навън ще е топло и зелено.
Когато се разсъня, пораствам. Оправям се на бързо и хуквам на работа.Там съм сериозна. Не винаги.
Когато онзи нахален котарак се домъкне на нашата тераса, излизам да си поприказвам с него.
Не ти се вярва , че знам котешки, ама аз знам...Наистина! Разказва ми за живота по покривите, за птиците, за това, че и на него му се иска да лети, нищо че е един възрастен сиямец.
Аз го успокоявам, че и аз искам да летя, нищо че съм един средностатистически човек. Решаваме някой ден да полетим заедно.
После той си отива, защото има и други задължения. А аз се прибирам и ставам пак много делова.
Веднъж едно водно конче беше решило, че не е много хубаво ,дето съм такава сериозна и влезе при мен през прозореца. Беше синичко.
Кръжеше около китайската роза и ме усмихваше.
Понякога гледам "Красавицата и Звяра" и плача. Не че понякога ,когато го гледам ,плача. Винаги плача, когато го гледам. Но го гледам само понякога. Не всеки ден.Има и други неща, за които да плача.За лястовичките.Които си имат гнезда над прозореца ми. И си отидоха.
За дъжда, за който никой не мисли...Дали е лесно да си дъжд, според теб? Според мен-не. Хората никога не са доволни...Ако те няма- суша било, защо те нямало, ако завалиш...защо валиш...мрачно им било...А аз съм дъжд понякога.И плача.
Обичам дъвки "Хуба Буба" . И ти ми се смееш, защото издували бузата ми и съм приличала на петгодишна.
А когато готвя си се представям като Пепеляшка. Не че имам нещо против да ти готвя...по забавно ми е, просто.
Когато съм под душа,си представям, че е дошъл световния потоп.
Когато слушам музика,измислям филм по нея.
Когато пуша , си мисля, че трябва да спра.
Когато рисувам, създавам нови светове.
Когато ме любиш, съм наистина твоя.
Когато пиша съм себе си.
Когато ти се сърдя , никога не е наистина.
Когато си ми сърдит, ми се плаче.
Когато пея си представям, че имам талант за това.
Когато чета не съществувам в този свят.
Когато те обичам, мисля, че сърцето ми ще се пръсне от обичане.
Когато те мразя,се заяждам с теб.После плача.
Когато спя, оставям леглото без чаршафи.
Когато се разхождам се влача безобразно бавно, за да разгледам всичко по пътя.
Когато ми е студено, най-студен ми е носа.
Когато ти правя кафе, слагам малко индийско орехче.Ама ти не знаеш. Затова се чудиш защо моето е най-хубавото.
Когато ям шоколад си мисля колко малко му е нужно на човек, за да е щастлив.
Когато мълча, просто ми се мълчи.
Когато ми е смешно, се заливам от смях на всичко.Дори и на облаците, които придобиват смешни форми.
Когато слушам гласа ти, пулсът ми се учестява.
Когато...те няма...
аз съм същата...но без теб...
A story from the time
when there was no electricity
The lighthouse keeper breathes heavily , saulty
and all the waves down are coming , high-tide
at sun-set the sky sings in red, but not faulty
sunrise in the morning comes with yellowish light
His eyes know so well the wings of the birds
he knows every star ,the place it belongs
when rain's falling down , sometimes it hurts
down in his eyes - when he can't sing a song
In the thick fog his lighthouse brings so much comfort
and it hides many prayers into his concrete hands
when he stars telling stories to the fishes around him
as a whisper, so soft, his voice sometimes becomes
He touches the sky ...It's so lofty and high
and he brings a hope to the far-distant ship
the lighthouse keeper is a home that says " Hi ! "
direction and strength ,real shelter, belief...
He stay there silent after every strom raging
he's lighter than Sun and hotter than Fire
when he is sad - the sea's dark,as if aging
and all salty water feels the guilty desire
The lighthouse keeper isn't here no more
but the small window breathes heavy with salt
there's a smile in the picture ,just like before
from a small greeny ship ,there can't be any fault...
Hide me deep in yourself ... let me be
to forget how much I am afraid
into your warmth, lost in reverie
let me tonight sleep soft and abate
Shelter me in Your palms very soft
wipe all the tears I've cried before
there is no road, no distance far,loft
it is just night,You and I - that is all
My lips are whispering softly to You
kissing your lack inside of me
Did You believe in the miracles, too ?
It simply means that one day we'll be.
And Until then hide me tight in your arms
just like the way - I keep You on the left
let me feel how it is - into your heart
all my love explodes ... (there is nothing left)
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I can say nothing more
it is You ... I adore !