Please
Don't be fooled by the face I wear, for I wear a thousand faces, and none of them are the real me, for I have a different face for every one I meet. I give the impression that I'm secure and confident in everything that I do, and that I need no one, but deep within me lies the truth. Deep within is where the real me lives, hiding deep inside so no one can hurt me again,
Like a child scared of the dark, I live in a corner of myself so deep within and have put up so many walls that I can't find myself any more. I've forgotten who I really am. Every time I am alone I cry a river, deep inside with frustration. There are no feelings left inside of me. Please somebody help me. I don't know how much more I can take.
I stretch out my hand for someone, anyone to help release me from this prison. But no one hears my cries. There is only the emptiness of the world I have created. When I am alone in my own little world away from prying eyes, I feel a rage deep within me, and hate, but hate for myself because it's all my fault or so I'm told. I can't stand to see what I have become.
Why don't they listen to me and try to understand and see where I'm coming from. I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing, and that I'm just no good, and that you will see this and reject me. And so begins the many faces.
I idly chatter to you. I tell you everything that's really nothing, and nothing of what's everything, of what's crying within me. Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying. I'd really like to be genuine. But you've got to help me. You've got to hold out your hand. Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care.
My heart begins to grow wings; very feeble wings, but wings to bring me out of the prison I've built through no fault of my own. With sincerity and kindness and your understanding, you alone can release me from this lonely world of shadows and doubts from my lonely prison. It will not be easy for you. The nearer you approach me I may strike back.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls, and in this lies my hope, my only hope. Please try to beat down these walls with firm hands. But gentle hands for a child lives within these walls a child that has never seen daylight, but only knows darkness. Who am I, you may wonder? I am someone you know very well. For I am every man, woman and child you will meet, from all walks of life, rich and poor. I am also you.
The Highway to Recovery
Through no fault of our own the situations that have happened in our life, through the people that have entered our life from birth, our emotions begin because we learn from the teachings that we receive from the people who we have been trusted to.
We look up to these people to protect us and keep us from harm. We did not make these emotions that live within us. It just happened now they are stored within us and causing us much pain and misery. Our life is not going anywhere It is at a standstill and has been for a long time. How we wish for change, we need to sort our feelings out and find our true selves; and only then will our life begin to move forward and the changes enter our life.
Through the emotions that have happened to us, we have built these emotional walls. It has caused blackness inside us, how we would like to break free and release ourselves from the darkness that we have made. We need to find the light switch so we can begin our journey through this emotional maze.
But where is the light switch, and if we have built walls are there any doors? And if there are, will we find the keys to open these doors, and who has these keys? There seems to be so many obstacles in the way and we have not even started our journey back yet.
Where do we start our journey to recovery so we can get through this turmoil of emotions? We have built a maze of emotional tunnels to protect ourselves. This is where we hide ourselves in our own little world. And this is the beginning; it is the first key of many. Are you ready to take that first step into the unknown, and use your second key?
If you are, then let us begin our journey and let the changes begin so we can live again and find the happiness that has eluded us for so long. It seems like an eternity now. Because it has been denied us for so long, we know there is going to be a fight like we have never known before. This fight is within us because there are inner changes to make we will have to conquer our fears. We will need courage and the strength to see this fight through to the end.
And yes, some people around us will not want us to change, because these people are the ones who made us what we are today. They took away our confidence and made us weak and frightened. But it is them that are frightened now because they know they can not push us around anymore. They are scared of what we might say and do.
We are going to
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