FUCK

clothes,martini,girlfriends,photos,style.fake feelings.imitation of happiness.fakenes.

the end.next chapter.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards.  Sometimes we win, sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return.  Do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

painful

fuckin painful

and unfair

i deserve smth better

fuckin long period of time of bad events

and why now shall i be ill of love

painful

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function

i've changed

usa for uk

and everything i like is starting to change

my bad days have change

i deserve luck and happiness and sun and flowers and smiles

i really deserve to forget just a lil bit about my crashed plans and to be happy

happiness seems to be loneliness and i am so tired to repeat it for myself day by day cuz i really forget how it is to be a couple

i've became cruel and cold,fuckin cold,and people see these things in me,cuz i push away everybody near me,and i do not want to help myself to love people,to be in love

and here my new plans start to crush too

my bff,she's a motif for me to say i'm lucky.i'm lucky to have her.

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