Amazing.. I haven't ever seen it like that.
Tremendous fire flowing off the ground into the heaven...
It has lasted for only about 10 minutes. Something has happened...
Damn... I'm being late..)

@music: Akira Yamaoka [SH4 OST] - Your Rain
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The rebellion of love against the spiralized powers of time... All those moments shaking up the heart like in a wild storm... The feelings I can't hide, and even not trying to...
It's so hard to catch a single image now, when there are lots of them whirling in my head over and over again...
But guess I know what I want to say.

The feeling of being important to her, doing and trying everything in the world to make her happy, to whisper tender words into her ear, to trust her absolutely, share her pain and joy together, thinking that all the unpleasant thoughts and words of hers are deserved by you...
This feeling is unbelievable, it creates and destroys, it gives lives and kills... There is so much more I want to tell. But I lack in words... Some images are just not expressable this way.
How can you disagree if you haven't yet tried to feel it?

Well, it's not happiness itself. That one is such a deep feeling, that's not possible to be achieved by a human. For after that you're not a human any more.
But this feeling is a part of happiness, not merely a shadow, not any more...

It's not important whether the things are pure, but it's all about how you value them. But in the end it all comes down to purity once again.

Pure thoughts can create pure things.

@music: Eminem - Sing for the Moment
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Funny. Just funny. Have nothing else to say...
15 minutes more, and the destiny shows it's true face. It's a pity to face it alone here...

The taste of blood is not forgotten.

@music: Evanescence - The Only One
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Life is so mysterious. A minute ago you were crying in coldness, desperately searching for the answer, and the next moment you dare the wings and touch the sky...

After all such moments one can not call it nothing but just a coincidence. There are signs all around us, waiting for us to notice'em.
Yes, sometimes the destiny plays a weird game with our lives and feelings. But is it just for fun or to test the follower's soul..? Who really deserves to know the answer and who's destined to be happy? Are these the same?

And.. what is to be sacrificed for that? In order to gain something people have to sacrifice something of the same price. But... We're still here, and we're still alive. Ain't this fact making the alchemist's principle senseless?

But the other way. How do we value the past? By our memories? But after all, remembrance is not sacrificed, living deep in our souls till the last breath. Some kind of a time machine...

@music: Chobits OST - I Hear You Everywhere
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The price for the smile.. was so big. I feel ashamed of my doings. Why have I gone so wild about all that future..? Damn it..
Can't face the reality the proper way.. What have I become? Why do I feel so empty..? What's going on...?
I'm lost...

@music: The Rasmus - Dead Promises
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All this happening so quickly...

We've met at the place of a tremendous beauty, under the Elven Tree of Life. She looked at me and smiled, as if we had already known each other for a long time. Her words, appearance.. She seemed to be an angel stepping off from the clouds. When she walked, it seemed like she hovered above the ground, though I couldn't see the wings clearly. We talked and talked on then, and time seemed to slow down around us...
Less than a day later I was in love. Of course, she didn't believe me. People don't fall for somebody that easily... But that was the truth.
For some time in the beginning, I hesitated. I hoped that this feeling would flow off me, like it always did. But... this time everything went another way. Day by day, it grew stronger and clearer. And soon, I wasn't able to spend a single hour without thinking 'bout her.

By watching other people's lives I've found something really interesting. Those, who always run catching beautiful and pure things, who have a sparkling life with lots of joy and grief, when everything seems to pass by too quickly for a common life... they die too easily, too early.
But how should I explain all this to her? She's not used to believe in fairy tales, however truthful they would be. Is that because of my sin..? Have I lost everything, when tried to create that world, that dream..?
I don't know how much time is left there for us. Maybe the death is waiting for me around the next corner... since I've had enough life. As for a human. Everything has its price. And this one.. is mine.
Am I afraid?

Though we're together now, she doesn't want to leave her past behind. She prefers to be hurt by it, time by time, while all I can do is sitting there and crying out tearlessly. In order to take her pain with me...
And I just want to take her far away, to the place, where any dream is fulfiled... Is it already too late?

Well, at least, after saying all this, it feels easier a bit. But the pain is going to come back. Very soon.

[Silver tears you left there before..
Now will you fall into a different world
Where I'd be the only one..?
© City Sleeps - Walkers Ridge]

@music: Flyleaf - I'm So Sick
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Hope - does it feel right, when all the time's out? Do we still believe in justice, when stepping on the scaffold..?
Remembrance - can we sacrifice it in order to believe in something pure? Ain't our memory the sentence we've got to handle, thus to prevent even deeper mistakes..?
Love - is it stronger than death? And what is more important, is there anything stronger than love?
The answer.. is at the place, where the loss lives.

LOVE is DIVINE

@music: FLOW - Re:member
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