we've been going out lately a lot
mm,,,seein all those british and dutch guys...

l met a very cute guy from Czeck Republic and we did enjoy our time at both clubs
l also showed him the park and it was so wonderful and magik just to hold hands....l dot a bit depressed last night but it has a very stron biological reason ("
Daniel was there to talk to me so that helped a lot
we got south park season 10 from norbert so we enjoyed it today...and gorky park afterwards
well
my computer is broke and l got to deal use this stupid laptop but oh well

was lookin for a pic for my possible tattoo
and that;s what l found
made me lose a few tears
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utrom bylo oshushenie chto ya ne pomnyu, kak hodit'
kakbudto telo chuzhoe
prihodit ego sms-ka...on govorit chto spal 12 chasoff i vse ravno net nikakoi energii
nado kushat bolshe fruktoff
i menshe pit/kurit

usually girls get hurt and pretend they are not which really pisses the guys off and they decide to forget about it which makes girls even more upset...and in few days or weeks their relation is just fucked up
and Danya wud not let me do that shit
he almost made me cry but dragged all my problems out of my head coz he said they mattered as l am his friend...that really flattered me...
and he apologized for things he did not even have to do...well...l've found a true close friend and it is wonderful as it is surprising....

so we talked and it really brought us closer...that's much better after all then pretending and hiding ur pain
God, thanks 4 meetein Daniel and we did enjoy that key joke a lot!!!

missed my classes today
have to go to the work tho...
miss Danya...
and l also need to get him medicine too...it is more serious than my fukin cold
feel like shit...really
dunno if l can make it to the club these weekends...
fuk
and tomorrow l have like 9 classes
hate it!!!!!!!!!

my mirimsya tolko dlya togo chtoby potom snova possoritsya
ya pishu on ne otvechayut
nachinayu zlitsya
okazyvaetsya on uzhe byl na urokah...
potom on otvechaet..fuk
chem dalshe eto vse zahodit tem menshe ya ponimayu
chto zhe chto zhe proishodit?
ya reshila zabit' i ne paritsya bolshe
i uzhe zabyla
sidela smotrela sponge bob
i tut nachinayut sms-ki ot nego sypatsya
gde ya i chto ya delayu
hochu li s nim vstretitsya
potom my govorim po telefonu
on zachemto govorit so mnoi na ispanskom
ya zachemto emu otvechayu
v itoge reshaem ne vstrechatsya
i ya snova nichego ne ponimayu...........

izza melochei
izza interneta
izza tupogo kz
izza neponimaniya
prosto izza togo chto soffsem po raznomu vse vosprinimaem
plevat'...ili net
no nadoelo chtoto pytatsya ponimat'
v zhopu vse
emu slozhno
no i mne nelegko
kak vsegda vse upiraetsy vo vremya
to ono podgonyaet
to slishkom medlenno dvizhetsya
kak seichas

В колонках играет - Ferry Corsten

If you have it [Love], you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have.
Sir James M. Barrie

Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is the soul of genius.
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
Aristotle

Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be.

Anton Chekhov

"Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it."
Robert Mitchum

ko mne prishla genialnaya mysl':
chtoby ne govorit ego imya, nuzhno zamolchat'
a chtoby ne dumat o nem...o nas...
nado prosto voobshe ne dumat'...i neponyatno kak etogo dostich...
ved' dazhe vo snah on ryadom...

vchera prokolno potusili s Norbi...govorili na temy knig, yadernoi voiny, kazakstanskoi politiki, narkotokov, psihologicheskih tipah lyubitelei podratsya (i snova vspomnili D), o seriinyh ubitsah(tut vspomili sinyuyu borodu i eshe raz porzhali nad ego podborodkom iz ktr-go eshe nedavno torchali sinie nitki, ostavlyayushie sled na moei/ego maike) o tom kto kak otdyhal i prochee
horosho tak got drunk
tak chto ya nazchala zazhigat v irish pub pod edva slyshimuyu muzyku na radost 50-60 letnim muzhikam
potom ob moyu pravuyu kolenku razbili chashku chaya
kakayato offitsiantka spotknulas
zalyapala mne rukav kurtki (:
provodil menya do dafa i poshel spat

poznakomilas s kakimto gavaitsem, eshe s DJ Nick Stevenson, predydushei noch'yu my s Danielom horosho pozazhigali pod nego

voobshem zavtra u menya jov interview i nuzhno idti spat
ah da,
my sednya s Jorge vmeste progulivalis do doma...milyi on vse taki..takoi horoshiy prpod ispanskogo yazyka

Итак, вы воплощаете- Любовь

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smeshno
navernoe moi otvet "u menya est strannaya tyaga k oruzhiyu" tozhe govorit o moei lyubveobilnosti (:-

menshe chem cherez chas ya vstrechayus s Norbi...a ya ne znayu, hochu etogo ili net...eto tochno poidet mne na polzu...v smysle ya vykinu iz golovy Daniela...nam nado nemnogo pomenshe obshatsya s nim...v poslednee vremya my stali slishkom blizki...
slushayu rumynskiy hip hop
takoi krasivyi yazyk...fukkin brainwashing
l had 2 dreams today,,,both including Daniel
Daniel
Daniel Daniel
DANIEL
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pytayus sobrat v kuchu svoi mysli...oni pochemuto kudato razbegayutsya ot menya,,,i sidyashaya ryadom Lena otnyud' ne pomogaet nichego vspomnit' (:
vrode by byla pyatnitsa i my poshli v dafrik...Daniel vrode tozhe byl...tochno pomnyu,,,,a eshe my pili-kurili mnogo...eshe zazhigali...chasa v 4 uehali...D ostalsya
nadeyus s nim nichego ne sluchilos
zhdu otveta na sms "u alive?"
seichas my nemnogo ochen ploho sebya chuvstvuem...no ya dumayu chto k vecheru eshe otoidem,,,opyat zhe-daf zhdet(:
yeap

В колонках играет - ferry corsten

went to Daniel's on wednesday
came home friday mornig...
toking and sleeping
short breaks for making meals
watching stupid tv...
going to party today...
hope it is gonna be fun
l mean it has to be...

oh,,,he made our time very special and unforgettable...
fukin fainted in front of me....scared the shit out of me...that was something to see (:

anyway
l feel kinda lost..tryin to put myself together
hope l'll succeed before the evening opens it's enormous hungry mouth

school
bank
watching movie "dom prizrakoff"
Banderos rocks
art club
almost finished my pic
talked to Norbi
met NightHunter orgs
talked to Daniel
got a message from Matt
might see him in Britain if l make it there this summer
he'll have a tour there
fell tired
gonna go sleep now
loving everybody,,,
and l did not hate this monday by the way (:

friday night we partied til da freak close
slept for 5 min with Daniel in the XL room...then we went to his place and then l went to school
at noon l slept fot 2!!! hours only...and then it is party-party-party again...
we decided to go to Soho with Lena..and l assumed we'd stop by da freak...
we met David, an italian interior designer there..took him and his friend to da freak
there l met Norbi...a guy whom Peter called a serial killer when we saw him few weeks ago...he works for NEO...which is called since l decided to change my number anyway ....
so it started gettin hot...then Daniel came(even tho he had promised not to party any more)...l felt like shit when he came actually...somehow l managed to dance even later on...
a conversation between D and N:
D: ty govorit' po russki?
N: chut'-chut'
D: ya ochen' mnogah
N: yeah?
D: fuck that!!!!!!

....between N and me:
me: what's on ur mind?
N: l am thinkin l wanna see u again
me: sweet
N: and l had the same thoughts when l saw u weeks ago...

wellwe did not leave each other this night and it was beautiful...
watching south park...listenin' to music...damn it is so cool to be young...it is so great to have smb nice around too...and l got a massage finally!!!!!
we woke up few times in the morning but got up around 3 pm
went to "uyutnaya norka", but every fukin table was reserved there so we went to Turandot
had our "breakfast" at 5 pm (:
chianese is yammeee especially after being so exhausted...
well that is the story of the weekends
l am happy we did make it to da freak...everybody had a lot of fun....

Can you see that I am needing
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own

by muse

smth has to happen in my life...the air around me is so frowsy yet l can feel the smell of change....Shane is coming soon...then l am having 2 job interviews...l need to move on...l need to forget the day of 29th December....and that smile which is just above everything...and everyone, for sure....damn...he did look like a god...and that blond one too,,,,l happen to be at the right place and at the right time...the problem is that it's always smb by my side who is NOT RIGHT..l am not blaming anybody...it is just some statistics...so the easiest way to meet smb l'll like a lot is to bring smb who sticks to me as if glued (:
yeap
fighting my depression by eating tons of chocolate....helps so far....

Настроение сейчас - happy

being @ da freak just rocked bad!!it was a hell lot of fun...many of my friends were there
people from school and from my nhunter team,,, "ORGI" as well...giving out condoms was rather interesting...hearing comments like "l got XXL by the way" and "wanna use 'em with me?" made me smile...enjoyed music in the end,,danced a bit even tho l was terribly tired and exhausted...
well...more paties like that will really do it...

yeasterday l found out that "the mysterious guy" was at soho so no games for this sat (:

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Настроение сейчас - flitterin

started celebrating this day at midnight with P....had a lot of fun...yammmeee
then l did not get enoff of sleep and went to school(so me)
after that - went to the blind school and gave my little presents to my kids
all the day l was literally jumping around...flying inside and all that....
we got back on and it means a lot to me...
well soon l'll be going to the club...l need to save some enrgy for that...

Happy Valentine's Day everybody anyway....

v chetverg zashla na ital'yanskiy s napolovinu vypityn jin-tonikom...skazala po-ispanski kak menya zovut
Roberto vypal v osadok
dnem vstretilas s Olegom...on vyros,,,
poznakomilas s Genoi...
Govorila s Adamom...on sprashival pochemu ya ischezla...chto mozhet pomoch esli nuzhno...chto skuchaet
poetomu my vstretilis s nim v Mad Murphy's v pyatnitsu...poznakomilas s Paul i Peter...
uehali v soho...
tam byl ochen i ochen milyi paren'...s dlinnymi takimi kudryavymi svetlymi volosami i ochen klassicheskim tipom litsa...vse bylo pohozhe na tot drugoi vecher 29ogo dekabrya---ya byla s drugim i my tolko obmenivalis ulybkami...a na proshenie on pomahal ruchkoi,,,,(:
c Peter poehali v dafrik nenadolgo....
v univer ya kak i vlyubuyu druguyu subbotu ne popala konechno...
zato mne sdelali ochen klassnyi zavtrak...i ya kormila golubei...polbulki hleba prigovorili...tak zabavno bylo kidat bolshoi kusok i smotret kak oni razletayutsya.....eshe menya prosvetili v plane avstraliiskoi muzyki,,,nado perezapisat chegonit' budet.....mne prishla v golovu smeshnaya mysl: nikogda ne dumala chto budu uchitelem no tem bolee chto mne ponravitsya uchitel'....hotya on navernoe kak i ya dostatochno sumasshedshiy dlya skuchnogo prepodovaniya
posmotrim