morkovno-apelsinovyi sok(reanimatsionnyi, kak V. by skazala) i incubus poet "love hurts"...ya dumayu o tom chto vcgera snova obidela malysha...on zabral menya iz barasti, gde ya vstretilas s PJ posle togo kak posideli v barzar...poehali v jambass..zatem v MOE zakinut Tameera k ego mashine,,,ya usnula i prosnulas ot togo chto u menya zatekla noga(hranovy sportivki takie neudobnye dlya spaniya!!!) i nachala istoshno orat potomu chto gromko vklyuchena muzyka,,,okazalos my byli uzhe vozle doma, t.e. ya prospala okolo 4o min i nichto do etogo ne meshalo...voobshem on rasstroilsya i v ocherednoi raz poprosil menya ne povyshat golos na nego...
voobshem mne dazhe stydno nemnogo...esli by on za mnoi ne priehal to pipets by byl...nado pozvonit' emu...

prosnulas--ryadom garfild i 2 mishki
vstala s krovati--krugom bardak...
prinyala dush,,,reshila ubrat
ved' okruzhayushiy mir-otrazhenie vnutrennego..nado navodit' poryadok..
zavtra vyhodnoi..nado dumat s kem a ikak ego provodit'...kluby, diving, malchiki?
hz
na flugtag nado s'ezdit'

vchera uleteli malchiki i lena v kish...priletela ira...my byli v madinate...poznakomilas s tomom..porugalas s hamzoi...segodnya govorila s fahadom...vse tak zhe chinit samolety...vot,,,

nakonetsto ya v dubai...priletela na neskolko chasoff ranshe--vsego to nado bylo ulybnutsya kakomuto chelu v forme...na passportnom kontrole zachemto sprosili moi mob...zabyla klyuchi doma-perelezla cherez zabor-potom v okno-prishimila sebe paltsy...skoro sosesi vyzovut kopov...mozhet i k luchshemu,,,hochu malchika v berete,,,obdumyvayu kuda by na radostyah smytsya...no nashi prosili dozhdatsya,,hz...poidu pit chai s maminym varen'em i smotret tv,,,
a eshe ya chut chut skuchayu po kishu i neskolkim tegerantsam...

segodnya sumasshedshii den
ele kak kupila sebe bilet-----zabludilas v abu hail
nikto nichego ne znaet, tupye taksisty i palyashee solntse
eshe i sotka sela
no posle neskolkih minut rydanii na radost prohozhim ya szhala kulochki i taki nashla etu sranuyu atlantu...
Natasha uletela v Atu...na rabote i domarazborki kakieto...

poslushaia zhivuyu iranskuyu muzyku...skoro bainki ili mozhet poidu progulyayus nemnogo...
uzhe skuchayu po Karimu...obeshala nafotat emu vsego...i Vike tozhe...
ahda...v moei sem'e pribavlenie----malysh canon!!!

dolgaya tyazhelaya nedelya
zapary na rabote...priehala Lena i ya dazhe tolkom ne znayu nravitsya zdes ei ili net...na vse uhodit vremya...Vremya (:

vchera byl zhestkii prikol
ya dumala chto obshayus s Rupertom poslednie paru nedel a eto byl Peter, ego luchshiy drug
zhest voobshe
a pipets budet kogda eto vse Guy propalit (:
sednya poznakomilas s egiptyaninom prikolnym...Hani

shas u Gaya..prishlos narezat Hamzu i Petera...chuvstvuyu sebya suchkoi.,,
zaputalas sovsem i vserdtse pusto...

segodnya byli v birds park and dolphinarium...very nice except we felt sorry for the cute dolphins--they aint got that much space to swim...anyway we are quite happy...got some sleep...had a huge breakfast and did some more shopping...got our visas so tomorrow gonna be outta here(if we book the tickets 4 2moro)damn it is so great to be in a beautiful place like this after having no sleep and no food for 3days...and the girls and l have become much closer too...l miss Guy a lot and it is not normal not to see each other for so long periods of time....
miss dubai
my home (:

yes!!!! lm gonna meet Guy tomorow!!! finally back from London and Vienna...l am soooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!
after all this waiting and fighting we finally gonna be together...give it a try...l mean after a year of playing around l shud be able to make a commitment...right?
Ali and l went out yesterday
he is very sweet and we've officially become good friends now,,,l mean it is nice to have some friends here...and the boy is giving me some trouble but he is not more than a younger brother to me...so it is all good...ALL GOOD

like l have to go to oman to change my visa next week and l am more than just a bit worried l am actually very stressed out and scared of it...then x-mas with Guy seems to be impossible due to all the headache and burreucracy with gettin a visa...l have to be present not only to get the visa but even to apply for it...may be use the connections with the netherlands embassy or l dunno what.,,may be my man will try to solve the problem...who knows....l mean nobody is dyin yet l feel so anxious...the boy is putting more pressure on me as well by demanding more and more attention and commitment from my side than l can offer...l believe that when it comes to making the choice it'll be Guy...

no one shud help me out with the brainwashing since it is my battle and l am the one to fight it...l cant have some man to comfort me and my worries...
so hard to be me,,,and yet so wonderul....

nachalos vse s togo chto my chisto simvolicheski hoteli otmetit moi dr....v itoge tortik prevratilsya v BBQ, a malenkii "semeinyi" vpustil v sebya Hamzu i Mansura...
vse proshlo ochen' teplo i pochti spokoino(ne schitaya chto Valera pytalsya spalit' moego mal'chika, ya ne nachala odna plavat' v basseine, ne razbila kryshku ot novogo chainika i malysh ne ostavil na mne eti duratskie sledy)
mne podarili kuchu interesnostei i poleznostei v vide: togo samogo postradavshego chainichka i 2uh chashechek(Ire stalo zhalko smotret kak ya zavarivayu chai v chashke s blyudechkom), klevogo kupalnichka iz RAGE i ramochki s moimi fotkami i kart s sobachatinkami(:
voobshem vse bylo ochen i ochen klevo..esli ne schitat utrennei golovnoi boli....

v chetverg tusila na plyazhe a potom v saj express s Hamzoi i edo druz'yami...tolpa malenkih izbalocvannyh no ochen veselyh malchikoff
v pyatnitsu byli s nashimi na plyazhe...potom proveli iftaar v apres,,tam zhe napilis, vstretila Ali, kupili shmotki v h&m..poehali uzhinat v uptown(chas nochi, pozdnii uzhin),,,tolko priehali domoi-nashi snova navalivayut na plyzh nu i ya konechno tuda zhe...
v itoge snova k 4em okazalis doma...nachalsya polnyi rzhach...N. nachala stirat v rakovine cvoi veshi, porom my otkryli podarok Ali(guerlain l'instant magic) i dumali na chto ego pustiy--spray dlya krossovok ili osvezhitel vozduha,,,,voobshem nelzya stolko pit'...
skoro za mnoe zaedet Hamza i poedu domoi,,,i snova na plyazh (:

my poznakomilis v pyatnitsy...v Virgin store...ya prosto podoshla k nemu (dostatochno privlekatelnyi chel plus horoshee nastroenie) i ostavila emu svoyu vizitku...potom nachali sypatsya smski i v voskresen'e my vstretilis...on zabral menya iz uptowna na svoei prokachennoi tachile("videla forsazh 2? umenya takaya zhe tachka kak tam zelenaya toka sinyaya..." ; ) poehali v moe,,,posmotreli chuck i larry s moim lyubimym a. sandlerom...posideli v chilis i rvanuli doimoi(imenno rvanuli, vyshe 200km topili, ya dazhe pristyagnulas...tochnee on menya pristegnul (: ),,potom snova zvonki i smski
ya ob'yasnayu malchiku chto u menya est paren a on v otvet---"nichego ne hochu slyshat, ty zastavlyaesh menya revnovat'"...and it is like: WHO THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE IS? on konechno zabavnyi malysh no sovsem ne nastolko chtoby ya "fuck up" nashi otnosheniya s Gaem...

eshe tut Meysam ob'yavilsya sovsem nekstati--"kuda propala, ne pishesh ne zvonish, davai provedem vmeste vyhodnye...ochen skuchayu i bla-bla-bla",,,stolko mlin soblaznov vsyacheskihhh...ya obeshala Gayu byt horoshei devochkoi i postarayus derzhat so vsemi nimi distantsiyu...naskolko eto vozmozhno...hotya inogda tak hochetsya prosto zatusit' like crazy...but l've made my commitment and now l shud change my behavior....

tak hochetsya rasskazat vse Dane..no eto duratskoe upryamstvo...kto kogo...kto 1yi sdastsya i nachnet miritsya,,,kto vinovat a kto net...komu eto nado,,eto vse chush...my ved tak dorogo drug drugu...i mne ne hvataet moego bratika...
zato skoro so mnoi budet odin zamechatelnyi chelovechek, odin iz teh kto mne deistvitelno dorog, primerno v seredine oktyabrya!!!!! friendz united!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and fuck of everybody else....!!!!

it is so nice to have someone close to u...going to sleep in his arms has become the most wonderful and magic thing for me...l feel so safe and full and calm,,,and l actually dont need anyone else...l mean l am still chekin' out people but it is nothing serious...and l dont know what to do with Ali boy but definetely keep distance and be a good girl for my boy friend!!!
how cool and sweet does it sound? --- "l have a boy friend!!!" !!!!!!!!!!
l am happy ....

zaero assoluto...
wow!!
http://www.zero-assoluto.it/
[699x682]

vchera posle raboty poehala v apres k Gayu,,,vstretili Rami i Thomas,,,izza kotoryh vse nachalos,,,Gayu nuzhno bylo rano uhodit t.k. emu nado proiti sednya vecherom ochen vazhnoe interview...kogda on uhodil my(tochnee ya!) nachali etot duratskii razgovor o vernosti i prochee..i on pred'yavil mne za povedenie b barzare..i v apres...tipa nefiga flirtovat s livantsami i vse takoe...esli hochesh chegoto ser'eznogo to i vedo sebya normalno...navernoe za god ya prosto uzhe zabyla chto takoe ser'eznye otnosheniya...voobshem dogovorilis chto bolshe nikakih igr, on potseloval menya i ushel...blin stalo kakto pusto...kakoito paralizuyushii strah chto ya ego mogu poteryat...s prime'syu kakogoto tupogo pofigizma s drugoi storony i kaplei vysokomeriya---tipa nafig ty mne eshe nuzhen u menya zhe eshe est(dalee v golove prokruchivaetsya spisok mestnyh pupsikoff) ...pridya domoi ya eshe raz peremotala nazad razgovor...i poslednii god..promelknuli vse eti smazlivye pustye litsa...i ya ponyala chto hochu nakonets chegoto spokoinogo i teplogo...i smogu eshe raz nauchitsya lyubit' (:
po kraine mere poprobuyu (dlya ochistki sovesti)
dumayu skoro vylozhu nashi foto...a mozhet i net,,,

well when l just got here on tuesday, they made a small party..utrom V got me some fresh melon juice,,,was very nice...in the evening l hit apres...where l met PJ and got acquainted with Guy(yeah the one who reminded me of Dan like 6weeks ago)...on thursday l met Guy again...we were going to ski but then l"chickened out" so we were at apres with his friends and then hit bazaar at madinat hotel,,,then going hame,,,on friday we went to barasti at le meridien hotel...then jazira hotel and resort---golden tulip,where we watched waveboarding, and then we wentto a beach party...was so fukin great!!! hot white guys around,,,nice beach..house music...pool!!! and rugby on tv...l met many new people from all over the world...such a wonderful evening! very tiring tho (:

well l saw this lil baby as l was walking back home,,,she was sitting alone in this dark place and she was CRYIN,,,so l did not doubt for a second and brought her home,,,she had some milk and some meat and now is sleeping beside me...my dog is locked up and prolly a bit jealous coz she obviously heard her murrring or purring(as smart ass Dan says) so thats a tough situation here (:
she is soooo sweet and cute,,,follow me everywhere...l hope l'll be able to keep her either here or at my grandma's,,,this like from the little prince is always in my head...so l think it'll be allright
thank God for sending beautiful creatures like that to my life!!!

l opened Marco's reply to my after-dafreak-drunk-message and still cant read it...the fact thet he did write it probably means that he does care a lil bit,,,even if he did not like what l've said,,,hmmmm....incubus, brian's voice screaming "l miss u" does not help either,,,anyway,,,while writing this message l did read his email...shit,,,now "na moei lune" song is like tearing me apart,,,anyway,,,he said l made him smile so this is much better reaction than the onel've expected
everybody is happy
...and they lived happily ever after

my message to Meysam dont get sent ...l am stuck in this shithole,,,Ali called saying he misses me,,,and l hate this all!!!!

http://www.davidpbrown.co.uk/psychology/a-love-test.html
check it out
l personally found it wuite useful and interesting,,,especially when l was thinkin between 1 and 3!!! white roses (:
such a bitch