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So..
I'm prepearing for olympiad work, which I'll wright today. I had no idea how to do this, so I decided to wright a big post in english about my hard philosophy. I hope, you'll like it.

It's very difficult to explane it. I've never wanted to die seriosly. It always was just an idiom to explain my condition. But two days ago I've suddenly understood, that I'm loosing my mind, 'cause I've always thought that life is shit. My life's shit. I don't care about almost everything, exept, maybe, Fassbinder's films. And I've realized, that it was a wasting of time.
I know, I shouid have a simpler attitude to the life, for not to be such an asshole and think about suicide and death and about how poor I am at nights.
Some years ago T evented me own system of self-protection. And soon I've met Kelly, who had the same thing. No this system is workind nonstop and dive not the worst results to me. I've decided to give some advices to you.
So...

SYSTEM OF SELF_PROTECTION.

1. Imagine the situation: you've quarelled with your friend and he said something bad to you like "Fuck you! If you, a pretty fucking asshole, with lots of shit, make this again, you'll get lost!!! I promise, I'll kill you!!" and he or she is so angry, you should just... burst out laughing and answer something like "You're so amasing, you look like a drunk beaver!" You win, congratulations!

2. If you think, that a person with whom you're sociating, don't trust you and starting to become a real problem. you should... find out his weak points. After that you should wait for good situation and start to beat.
Example: A girl, who's 16 years old thinks about herself too much. She thinks, she's clever, in spite of, she always read books for 5-years old children, she thinks, she's her own style, but she hasn't. She thinks she's a leader, but everybody laught at her. So, our dialog.
- My dear, I understand it perfectly. You're not that person. You're just poor little, very childish girl.
- Why do you think so? Im' not.
- Everybody're laughting at you. You think, they're your friends. But they're real enemies.
- What a shit!
- You think, you're so popular, you've your own style. No, my dear! You're an idiot! Nobody needs you. The society can live without you happylly. With you it has problems. I don't think, you should be born... (effective pause) Yeah... It's so difficult not to have a self-esteem in our competitive world.. They'll turn you into powder, it'll be the end.
Tears, scream and an opportunity of making a suicide. Isn/t it so pleasant, is it?
You've won, congratulations!

3. PROTECTION
Firstly, try not to show your weak points.
Develope your self-confidence.
Don't use this too mush.
Try to understand me, I'm crazy))

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