yeah we r in NY. living on Manhattan, enjoying the city. BUT i dont feel right. I dont feel that im in a right place now. i still hope that things will work out and be better, but what of not? i know that im being pissimistic, but what if..? i canr go back to moscow. Im somewhere in a middle. it sucks(

summer was good, but not as good as i thought it would be. im always returning to past. wtf? now i just dont want anything or anybody.

yeah things with ryan are not going anywhere. yws, hes in love, but honestly i dont really care about it anymore. i just dont wanna hurt him, cuz he doesnt deserve it, nobody does. hes being so nice to me, but i feel more annyed by him rather then i like him.

im sick of school already, idk how i will make it through this 3 years that i have left.

im just trying not to get myself into the depression, trying very hard.

ok liza, stop whining, u have stuff to do in NY! i will make it, i promise, i will! so after a year or so i will read this and smile, that things just got a lot better. yes def!

listened to the song: B.O.B. for like 10 times today:) love this song.