i think, really think and realize that i have only one life, only now and here and that's the only possible truth... and i realize how terribly i waste my life and can't stop doing it... i realize that tomorrow i am going to enter the Symtem, called corporation. Corporative style, way of thinking, rythm... it means scheduled life in frames, in limits... i don't want to have only one road "work-home"... i think about it all the time...