Life is a funny thing - it always teaches us something and then puts us in such circumstances when all that doesn’t make any sense! It has taught me to be closed, to get over deception, to rely only on myself, to escape pain by all means, to play and to make others suffer instead of myself. It has taught me the meaning of a word “revenge”, but I missed the class of explaining “trust”. I got the idea of being alone - life has taught me to enjoy solitude - that’s why I long for socialising that much - that‘s why “being close“ hurts that much. But it has never taught me to communicate properly. I enjoyed the word “hatred”, but never could catch “love” - it was too mysterious, too like a fairy-tale. That’s why I’m studying all that myself now - so don’t be too strict, because it‘s a complicated lesson to get through. I’m doing my best.