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I've got all... But I feel alone... 15-10-2005 16:24 к комментариям - к полной версии - понравилось!


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There are people who support me.But I can't open up.
They hate the fact I cant tell tham things. So they go behind my back and read the things I write in the forum.
I cant tell you, you will never understend what I'm saying.
Maybe someday you will know what that is...
Not loved, not happy, not normal.
I want to feel the pain. even a scratch, something that make it easy.
What is fucking wrong with me?
This pain took my life. My future. The present.
The past is still there, it's there to make the pain worse.

Is it so easy to see that I'm have no self confidence?
That I'm closed inside?
That I'm never ok?

I wish It was not like this. I cant control it.
Sorry...


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_AnA_ 15-10-2005-16:43 удалить
Oh it's awful when someone reads your journal... I had a case once.

You're not alone... A lot of people feel it. Don't give up and don't get stuck in your depression. There must be something good in your life!

*a funny thing: a person giving you this advice is very often depressed and dissatisfied with everything*
AnA: lol everybody tells you that "everything will be ok!!!" when thay know that it's not posible...

Ex_Ecstasy: You mean kill myself?!?? not a bad idia...
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Ex_Ecstasy 15-10-2005-23:44 удалить
no..with killing you won`t solve thee problem!
just left your pain GO!
no....to kill yourself it won't solve the prob i'm agree
but...to leave the pain....how?...i dont belive it can be possible....it's like drugs....u'll like it or not....may be u like it....i can understand...'cause i've just started lovin' pain....hmmm...don't worry....i think, it's guite normal...for me))
no....to kill yourself it won't solve the prob i'm agree
but...to leave the pain....how?...i dont belive it can be possible....it's like drugs....u'll like it or not....may be u like it....i can understand...'cause i've just started lovin' pain....hmmm...don't worry....i think, it's guite normal...for me))
_AnA_ 16-10-2005-11:44 удалить
You know, sometimes it's useful just to observe your life for a while... to float down the stream and relax, but not for too long not to lose control of your life. Just BE. Maybe you'll be able to realize what's really going on.
Tnx...

I know I have to stop solve my problems with cuts...
& I cant let the pain go away.

I dont know what is wrong wuth me, I dont even remember when I become like this...
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Ex_Ecstasy 17-10-2005-17:10 удалить
no aim-no life.it`s a rule.
no any advices for u..u`re thee master of your life.
why are u suffering all the time?have no AIM.only pity and regrets.for me..it`s better to die then..
WE`re waiting for yor FIRST step..to thee life..to thee AIM.just MAKE it and we`ll be with u.
Ex_Ecstasy, agree....to have an aim...can solve the prob with cuts....may be then u'll feel taste of life....ur life...
_AnA_ 17-10-2005-18:18 удалить
Ex_Ecstasy, I totally agree.

ask yourself what are you living for... You know, having formulated a problem you are on half a way of solving it.
"Take anothe chance to find a different enemy
And try to free it"
Lacuna Coil
_AnA_ 17-10-2005-18:19 удалить
Ex_Ecstasy, I totally agree.

ask yourself what are you living for... You know, having formulated a problem you are on half a way of solving it.
"Take another chance to find a different enemy
And try to free it"
Lacuna Coil
Тень_Ангела
Pardon me, for such superfluous intrusion, but I just couldn't let myself ignore your comprehension of the word AIM... Well, I have no idea which of the the English you're trying to use whether it's British or American, or Australian, I have never heard the word "aim" used in a sentence as "no aim - no life"... The precise way of rephrasing it would be "no GOAL - no life"... We use the word "GOAL" as something that we're trying to achieve in the future... The word aim is used seldom, and usually as a verb, not noun....

As for the cutting yourself, I used to do it too... The feeling of pain is not pleasant, but the relief that comes after the blood vessels contract and expand is phantasmagoric... However, cutting yourself just to solve the problem is worthless, same as crying, and suffering, because it doesn't change a thing... Just try to commit suicide or watch SAW to find the real meaning of life...

Sadly, the real meaning of life comes to us, when we're dying...


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oh my godness....Тень Ангела, u r too clever...)))
I know I have to take the step, And stop being "only pity and regrets".
But it's not that easy.

I know that cuting is not going to solve my problems, I hate the feeling that you only wait to cut, I realy hate it.
I'm trying to stop doing it, but its not going to be easy for me.

TNX, It means a lot for me that youre here.
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