here is here
somewhere
i feel him
feel the air
feel the smell
i feel wind touching you before. now me........
i feel the drop from your tap in the morning. feel the saound of your tea cup putting on the table, hear you alarm-clock in the morning. 7 a.m. I wake up with you. i see wet bathroom after your shower, i take you wet towel and put it as usually on one place. the same place every morning.
I see you in the room. choosing clothe/costume for you to go to work, find you watches in the dining room, make breakfast and know that this very time you are making bad.......... i try to put on make-up quickly, puching by your words KATIA! WE WILL BE LATE! HURRY UP.
I try but as usually fail to be in time)) we sit in car and go to my office. from this very minute our days start separately...

I live this life. work/waiting for your call during the day, waiting for evening. evening with you.

........................
I feel you. I feel you so close. close to my life.

but you are not.

you are somewhere near but not with me.
you are drinking tea but I cant feel its smell...
we are apart.

you continue to live.
am paralized.

what you did to me?
why??????????????????????????????????????????????????????

why when I feel you are close..why I cant touch you..............