I am living the very first minutes of a new day. I´ve been so tired and busy lately. Last week I was so sick that I thought I´d die. I would like to have time to search for pics to put here; but sometimes I ask me: "why should I do that?" nobody comments them. Indeed the only reason for what I put such stupids pics like these, is a fricking hope that someday she can say a simple "hello" to me. But, unfortunelly, I know she won´t. Recently I knew a girl. She is very nice, but she wants to convert me for her religion. I cannot change what I think about God just ´coz a girl. I cannot change for nothing. It´s a pity. As for SHE, why she hates me so much like this? I would go back to Russia if she allow me to say just: "I am sorry". I am sorry for having lost your friendship ´coz my silly matters. Probably, she will never read these lines, but if she will, surely she´ll think I am crazy, how she always did. Today is my father´s birthday. I need call to him. He was a great man, but fool too. My eyes are almost closing for themselves. I am too sleepy. I need sleep.