it was a bit.. like a mass. but I hope will make it alright.

OMG. I need to go to sleep, 'cause I won't be able to get up to work 2moro.. oh. too many thoughts in my head.

I was furious when I got home. now, I'm feeling better. but the problem with.. me I suppose.. is that when I'm furious.. after that I mean.. I feel myself empty. so that's what I feel now. empty. with no powers to do smth. it's too hard for me doing all these things. working. studying. the whole family is ill. and they're on my shoulders now. all at once. I didn't think it can be that hard.
but how can I tell such things? there're people with situations harder than mine. I need to praise God.. and I.. just..

oh, yeah. gr8! now, I'm talking to myself. excellent. I'm nuts..

I'm wrong as always. I need a back up badly. I need sbd's hand. I need sbd's hug..

I need to stop myself thinking that way.
it's not normal.
and I'm not unique. with all my problems.

need to sleep now.

missing you.
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