That`s not what I thought it would be...That`s just what it should be...
you know, it`s crawling...it`s eating..it`killing while developing in a perfect substance of a new ideal image...Gone for good...that`s what I told him...I shouldn`t have...but i had to...
it`s crawling while me relaxing, thinking...why should a person think? What shold he think about? That doesn`t matter for nothing can`t keep from one & deep thought...what thought?? Why should I say anything?? Why should i write this??? so many WHYs...so many uselessness...i feel some cold blowing...i`m tired...i`ll cry..i know one day i`ll let the tears crawl down the skin...when i feel other skin on mine...but not now...
that`s so strange...i`ve never really thought i would like a ghost...I told that to a real man..a person..a unique, i suppose...he let me..but he didn`t take....

i`ve NOBODY.....................................................................
and that`s EVERYBODY............................................................

I wish my inner ME never died..had never died...

The ed is close..it`s closer then i could imagine....

And I`ve no love................................................................
I don`t want to love any more...................................................