woke up. lonely. ate breakfast.. lonely.. drunk tea.. lonely again.. i can't say i feel bad... i feel terrible.. =( one thing i know for sure. being so lonely is not so bad as i think.. i have a lot of time, a lot of ideas to realize... i don't want to be changed though i know i can't remain unchanged being smb's GF.. i know that everything i write here is stupid.. it worth no time i spend shedding tears on the keybord =) but the fact - it's spring again and i'm lonely again... but the one thing i know for sure... i let him go... =) free as a bird who can't fly any more... with broken wings and teared apart soul... dead reality. here with me for EVER =)) i'm not dead yet.. i'm not your prey... i will never be your prey... broken but alive..... ALIVE