В колонках играет - Muse - Sing For Absolution
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so... how to tell it... after constructive thinking i made some conclusions...so.... my life now can be divided into 2... the first part before the EVENT and the second part - after... so if concider the first part - i liked it more... there was a pending... i was looking forward the miracle... and the miracle didn't make me wait for too long... i was about to give my all for that miracle... and i gave it all... i gave my heart, my soul.. my peace.... all for being happy.. since i knew that this chance's given just once in life... i would never forgive myself if i hadn't done that... but now the second part of my life began... yes.. it is hard to understand that there will be no miracles any more.... no one will come to wrap me in the warm blanket of sweetness... and i don't need it... every night that sweetness comes back to me... i changed my soul for memories... memories in the moonlight...

when there is no hope life is a curse.. i will sign papers giving my organs to others and will wait till the moment comes.... and this is soon... no matter whether tomorrow or in 50 years.. it is so close to me... i can feel it's cold breathe...

i am happy that it was... that it happened to me... it was a blessing....