Ok, so sometimes I honestly hate to be smartie as I am, but, I was born with brains and now is perfect time to use 'em! :))
I could, if I was stupid, let this guy come in and out of my life whenever he felt like it, get hurt every time he wouldn't call, disappear and get "high" every time we'd spend together until one day when he is gone forever, building serious relationships with another girl! Then I'd get so hurt! :) instead, I'm gonna get him out of my life now and forever- he is not ready to commit, he wants to go out and have fun, I am gonna let him- he can go on with his life, he is not what I am looking for anyway! Yeah it will hurt, but I know I am strong enough and it will be fine soon!
Then, I just got so many things on my to do list- its gonna keep me pretty busy next few months anyway!!!!
I wanna get my own place, I want to paint it and make it my and Gabby's HOME until I save up some $$ for my own house, I need to buy me bed and HUGE screen TV and some furniture, I want to stood with my both feet on the ground and support my dreams and Gabby's life! I know what I want and how to get it, now all I need to do is FOCUS on it! I got another wedding coming up and already signed contracts with two more!!!
And I just had a lady who randomly came up to me at work and gave me little handmade angel- she said she felt like I need one in my life right now!!!! Made me realize - I need to smile more or people will think I am depressed negative wreck!!!! he ....

I've got two more guys on hold..... :))))) maybe ill go to a dinner/musical with one.... Well see how I feel.... I need to get distracted. Not going to talk to him at all. Meet him or answer his text. This door needs to be closed forever!!!!!
Wish me luck, people!