I am trying to meet all those new guys, I almost constantly talking/flirting with somebody just praying the next guy I'll meet will be somewhat worth getting more serious with- and I end up driving home form another not so good date- crying!!!!! Because I miss my babe!!!!! And the worst part is- he is still texting me, still saying how great I am and how he want to meet me! For only one reason of course, we can meet- but no commitment nothing serious! I love talking to you Leeka, but oh no, I am not ready to date, you are an amazing girl and I miss you but OH NO I am not ready for serious relationship!!! And all I want is to see him again, cuddle with him again, kiss him again, hold his hand, how is it even possible to feel so connected to a person when you don't even really know him????
How do I get over this???? How do I get my heart back together and keep leaving my life the way I lived it before????
I HATE IT!
All I want is to forget him and at the same time all I want is another night together with him!
I am so stupid!