right before I saw some pictures on Eelena's blog I was about to write a freaking depressing post about my fucked up life. well it i not actually that bad. everything is going great. I am moving in the right direction and all, but my feelings are all screwed up.
but then I saw those pictures and was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... I am so freakin silly- IT IS ALL GOOD!!! I live for moments like those on the picture! :)))
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so, my news.

It is official now- we filed for divorce! Those guys who've dreamed to go out with me- you can cross your fingers- withing 6-8 months you'll be able to show me what you've got! ;)

I am about 90% sure I'll get to stay in the house until it gets sold and Sasha is paying for it.

I am 100% sure I won't get my status screwed up ( he filed for divorce, not me, baby together and other god stuff)

So yeah baby, yeah! :)))

Right now he got some {supervised} parenting time until the divorce court where I'll fight for full custody. Knowing his parents and him too well- he won't need Gabby fr too long anyway. He got his parenting time- every other week he'll have her. I am not sure how we're going to survive this abuse with my mom, but we will some how... I was even thinking bout flying to FL { to you know who} for a weekend with my mom, if that's OK with { you know who} but not sure bout money- will have to check the cost of tickets, but I thought it'd be so freakin cool!



what else what else...

OH my feelings...

since this is the ONLY place right now wheer I can spill what's on my mind- here we have it people:

i can't get J* out of my head. It is not permanent I know, all I need is some time, but still, right now I can not even look at him, it hurts, that he is married and we met too late in life and there is absolutely nothing between us but sympathy { even though every time I see him all I can think about it..well you know what} and the other freakin thing is that I feel he does too { talking bout that other thing}....


k whatever. i ll get over him pretty soon.

here is picture for you guys...
for those who doesn't read stupid posts! ;)
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