i  just realized that i have been stressing out for nothing!

its actually great that he doesnt want to marry me, because i know i cant get married either for the next 5-6 years....and lots of things can happen in these years, i know that i cant afford to have a serious relationship now or in a nearest future, so its actually great that it all worked out that way, seriously

right now all that i should think of is money and more money, i need to earn as much as possible to buy my parents a house, go back to ukraine, fix everything there , start a business for my father and only than think about my personal life... so its not that bad after all...........:)))