after all, how badly do i want it
i am still my fathers daughter
and i would cry to do as my fathers done
but what about my dreams and goals?
i live my life just like my fathers done
and my heart is in chain
so tell me why, every time i try, i cant let it go
i cant be independent, am i glad? mad? sad?

despite all that, i am still am
hurt over mine and i live my life just like ...........
i am losing my best friend, i can feel it
but thats ok, i will find a new one , soon, i believe

recieved my check from old job, and spend it all in one shot
i bought two new pairs of italian shoes and took my mother to the japanise restaurant for the breakfast

thats my friday, not much fun, nothing going on , dull and boring
i wish my life could change........

i wish i was somewhere romantic , by myself, drinking wine on a facade of local cafe.... reading local business newspaper, but only fashion and gossip section... thinking about my present and not the future.... looking around for cute men....wearing nice laced dress ....a church on my left....an old ancient building on my right....no lights....no hasstle....

no way................................................................
never................................................................

i wish i was that character from the book that i read this summer
what a life.....

p.s. my regular down swing side :)