nothing, but at the same time so much new going on
i don't know where even to start
i am back to school, my last semester
seems like interesting classes, but in my com class i have will, which means, it won't get so much fun since he will be around all the time
my job is fun, seems like the people in the office like me, but i am not sure if i am doing the right job, i know i am capable of doint it, but my boss is always out of office and i have no clue what he wants me to do when he is out...
the weather is crap, i have a cold...
feeling down...
feeling lonely....
i guess its because of the new season, fall, i hate fall
i cant stop playing my jazz records around the house...
they relax me and make me feel sleepy, so i can fall asleep and forget about everything and everyone around me
its raining like hell
and i don't have the right shoes and warmer sweaters!
i went like a hundren times shopping aready and still didnt' find the right shoes and cute sweaters.... its making me sick.....
i am feeling like i wanna fall asleep and wake up in winter time....
althrough i am looking forward to halloween weekends...
i wanna dress up and participate in the parade.. hehe... kinky me...
there is this one guy at teh office that i kinda like... but a few days ago i found out that his got a son, plus he is like 10 years older than i...sad...
no luck....on the other hand, irina keeps on bother me with her sex life...it puts me down even more....bitch....
i am listening to george michael right now and can't get enough of his sad love broken hard songs...so touchy...
i am writting some bs ... that i probably will never read back....i have no idea what am i doing, i am just typing everything that pass's thru my mind....
oh, i've been thinking what will i do after graduation......
i've been thinking a lot... where to look for a job, where to live, with whom to live? will i be able to survive on my own if i decide to live by myself...totally by myself...sounds like a great movie episode...i am packing my bags and moving out out of my parents place...i am a fucking 22 years old stupid virgin...haha...with dreams and hopes....with big future and hopes for even bigger career....i no longer trust cards... idont' wanna believe them...i decide my own future, not them....but that tennis professor was so right....i do have my ups and downs in my life... and right now i am on the down side....but, its all good... the show must go on..right???