I so want to just give in, just let the world have its way and get myself locked somewhere nice and quiet. Everyone keeps telling me what a lovely person I am, how special I am to them. So if I'm such a lovely person and so special why the fuck is everything in my life going wrong?

I've been close to tears for a long time, on the edge of them constantly. I just feel so weary from having fought against them for so long and I just want to give in. I want to stop caring about the world and everything in it. I want to be just kept away from the world, or let it all end, and to be honest I don't really care which.

The one thing I don't get is why can't I?

Bunny