I can't neither explain nor understand what's going on with me. The only reason of my vague mood is the lack of Beloved. I don't say I don't have him at all! No!!! I've got my Sweetheart but he's really too far away. And all the holidays without him seem to be dull.
Of course the reason may be a dull weather as well. But this cause is unlikely to be true as it doesn't rain evertday but I am in doubt even in a bright sunny day.