Everything is upside down. Past is haunting me, not a day passes without some kind of a flashback. It's just so hard to let it go, when everything and everybody around me is somehow connected to those happy/not so happy days. The feeling of responsibility for people I care about. Am I so selfish? Or what is it? Just want to be happy and see people I care about happy. Just want to be free... As free as I can be.