I am really happy right now. And I am not taking it for granted. Also, I do not expect anything any longer, because thus I am doing my best at avoiding disappointments; I prefer to be surprised instead - and mostly, they were pleasant surprises. It's easy to please me...and he knows it, yet he goes out of his way to surround me with the best experiences ever. We don't spend much time together, but everytime we do, it's amazing and I enjoy every second of it. I don't know how he ended up in my life, but whatever forces brought him, I am grateful to. I have resisted this whole thing for a while now, and my analytical mind was fighting with the strong intuition continuosly, because I could not bring myself to believe that people like him existed, that they were real. He barged into my life when I was at my weakest, and within weeks I realized(once again) who I truly am and how much I've put my life on hold trying to conform. I've abandoned my own self, and was fighting hard to get it back. I am thankful for every conversation we've had, silly or not - they've impacted me in a very personal way and I am happy again to be living this life while being true to
myself. The curiosity and zest for everything around me are back here again, and I am not giving it up! It would be great if we progressed into something deep and be there for each other for many years to come, but for whatever time we have together I would always be thankful...xo