it's been a long way... i thought i might be recovering....maybe the chemicals in my head are going to arrange themselves in a proper order at long last. i hate it all, hate it all so much..... Hate my head for arguing with me all the time, putting me down, making me hate myself.... Hate people for being so thick, so blind.....

cant be with people, cant be alone... cant hurt others to take it out, cant hurt myself.... what do i do?