there was only today for me. Endless today, the size of life, the end of death. THis today brought tears, heartbreakings and hate. IT also brought some fresh flowers and smiles. But i will forget about that soon. I will only remember you. My first steps, your lieing smile and pain......Yes it wasnt a dream. I was there. It was me under your pressure. It was me, that drunk girl who was crying in the bathroom. It was me, who was left alone in the dark without any air. Cuz your love was an air for me. And now you are gone from my life. Every day i look in the mirror and see someone different. The old me is gone, and i dont know who the person is, on the other side of the mirror. I just wish that everything wouldnt be so difficult and complicated. I just wish i could want what i have. But it will never happen. I'm a trash and it wont change now. It's weird, how angels can fall from the sky, it happens fast and they cant go back. Well, i cant go back either. Im suck in this place between my desires and my real life. You messed up my life. I dont know why but i dont hate you. Everything happens for a reason. I believe there is a reason for my fall. I mean, there has to be one, i have to believe in it, otherwise i will go crazy....Oh wait, i already am.