Настроение сейчас - whatever

I'm so fucked up
Sex and the City on TV
lesbian relationship
a mosquito all around
wanting kill'im without any result
so empty & hopeless
what the hell is goin' on in here?..
do wonna changes but noway
there is no aim there is no life there is no me at least
the only thing I know for sure is the kind of light I want in my bathroom - candles on different levels 'n certainly some lamps all around
BTW I've just remembered my forever-hard nipples
so the question is: who brings romance closer?.......