so...i'm not staying home tonite.. correction - it's probably no longer my home. he refused to keep the dog even for a couple of days until i get everything figured out. i think he expected me to break down and ask for forgiveness so i could stay - but i didnt. i held myself up until the moment i said "i'm kicked out" outloud. It funny, because i made everything unbearable on purpose, so this time i'm not the one trying to leave. i've was successful at making myself so undesirable, where he was forced to get mad.. The scary part - it was all too easy. Whatever - it's been a couple of hours - i'm better. i'm staying with my friend. she was kind enough to let my dog stay too; otherwise i have no idea what i would have done. I don't have family or a lot of friends here... the only friends i do have -have husbands and children and would be too busy to even pick up the phone to hear me cry. again - whatever...