Was thinking a lot where I can write smth.
Actually I forget about this diary. I mean at all.

But still. This is the best place for some thoughts.

There was smth unusual in March. Smth that made me feel different.
I've slept with one of my ... don't really no, cause that time he wasn't a friend for me.
And it was awesome. Really was.

It all had happened as the backstage of his drama with one of our common friend. With the girl.
And I helped him to manage it.
And then we've slept.

After this we became friends. I mean, both of us knew there was nothing serious between us, that's why it was so attractive and so cool.
And there were absolutely fantastic three months of constant talking (he lives in different country) and sharing almost everything. Then he came to Russia again and there was a week when we literally lived together. That was even better than awesome. And definetely too emotional.

And now seems like he's afraid of it, and I'm not the person that insists of her presence in somebody's life, so now
there is a silence in my world...

But
Some days ago another friend of mine appeared in chat, maybe we will meet each other soon.
And I'm actually better thanks to him.

Another problem is
That I want him.